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Baby Haguewood #2 – 36 Weeks

36 weeks with baby #2

How far along? 36 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: +23lbs. 

Maternity clothes? YEP! 

Stretch marks? Nothing.  I’m on track with the weight and my belly is about the same size as my first pregnancy. I feel like i’m carrying the same as well. 

Sleep: Some good nights and some bad nights.  I’ve graduated to multiple pillows positioned in a very specific way and then I just flip from side to side with bathroom trips in between.  We also have the AC cranked because i’ve been hot as heck lately at night.  

Best moment this week: With hitting week 36 we are now in the final stretch and are visiting the doctor weekly.  We learned we are still 2cm dilated and are making progress. Slowly inching closer and our doctor seems confident that it could be SOON!

Have you told family and friends? Yep!

Worst moment this week: I realized that I might still go full term and that means 4 MORE WEEKS of pregnancy. 

Miss Anything? Still EVERYTHING!!! I’m so looking forward to my first post-baby cocktail just in time for Summer!!! YAY!!!

Movement: Strange movements and baby is most active when i’m laying down. But Hubby made a good point, this could be because I pay attention more when i’m laying down.  Most days we are so busy chasing Miss Reagan around that I don’t even notice fetal movement until she is in bed. 

Food cravings: No

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not real. Still no appetite but the baby and I are both gaining weight so we are good. I’m almost at the 25lb. weight gain minimum.  I gained 26lbs. with Reagan.  

Symptoms: Rib pain, back pain, a little acid reflux, and an electrical sensation in my pelvis that is the baby hitting nerves as he or she drops. This sensation is usually followed by a Braxton Hicks contraction, which I have multiple times daily, and sometimes a brief real contraction that feels like someone stabbed me in the pelvis with a knife.  I remember when I was in labor with Reagan I was TOTALLY SHOCKED at how painful “real” contractions can be.  I thought I could handle it but boy was I wrong.  The nurse just held my hand and nodded her head saying, “Yep, there is a reason they call it L-A-B-O-R.” I do wonder how men would react to such pain.  I’m just curious.  

Have you started to show yet: YES

Gender prediction: BOY!!!

Labor Signs: I thought my water broke the other day. NOPE. TMI, but yea, it wasn’t water. Enough said. PS this is totally real, unglamorous, motherhood at its finest.  Everyone is so busy “glorifying” motherhood in all its perfection on Instagram and Facebook.  BULLSHIT! TOTAL BULLSHIT.  Real motherhood/pregnancy is peeing yourself and thinking your water broke, being so tired that you don’t shave your legs, and maybe not wearing a bra for like, IDK, a week maybe.  Also true, sometimes I let Reagan cry in her crib because I just can’t handle it and am busy crying myself in my big girl bed.  TRUE LIFE. Being a mom is really hard some days, not all days, but some days.  And I am so thankful that I don’t feel ashamed at crying or asking for help when I get strung out. 

Belly Button in or out? OUT

Wedding rings on or off? On but only sometimes.  I’ve always been in the habit of only wearing my wedding ring when we go out in public. And we aren’t doing a whole lot of anything these days so its mostly off.  My hands are slightly swollen but not too bad. 

Happy or Moody most of the time: I’m feeling all the emotions there are to feel. Mostly nervous/anxious about delivering and what it will be like to have a toddler and a newborn in the house at the same time. I have no expectations about what life will be like with two kids and am trying my darnedest to stay grounded and calm.  I’m assuming that “strung out” feeling with be multiplied by 10, but don’t want the fear of that to overshadow the joy and love we will experience in the first few days and weeks of being newborn parents again. 

Looking forward to: NEXT WEEK, week 37!!! Baby will be considered full term at that point which means we have the go ahead to deliver whenever baby should decide to come! YAY!!!

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Baby Haguewood #2 – 35 Weeks

week 35 baby number two

How far along? 35 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: +21lbs. I’m really hitting the weight milestones now.  The baby is busy growing about a half pound per week and so am I.  I think i’m going to be right on track compared to were I was last time. 

Maternity clothes? YEP! 

Stretch marks? Nothing yet. Still keeping my fingers crossed.  My belly is getting pretty darn tight.  

Sleep: I feel like i’ve already covered all the sleep difficulties in previous posts.  I’m simply accepting that NO SLEEP will be the new norm for the next several months.  I do feel like my body is slowly acclimating to constantly being in a sleep deprived state.  Its amazing what the body is capable of doing on very little zzzzzz’s. 

Best moment this week: It has been an interesting week for sure.  I went in for my checkup and learned that I am 2cm dilated and about 50% effaced.  Getting closer.  The doctor said it could literally be any day now OR I could still possibly go full term. Although this is unlikely because I didn’t go full term with my first. It definitely got the anxiety flowing and i’ve been sitting around ready to give birth at any moment.  I don’t recommend this.  It is highly unlikely that i’ll deliver before 37 weeks and completely normal for women to walk around dilated up to 4cm for weeks before they go into active labor. 

Have you told family and friends? Yep!

Worst moment this week: We had a mini scare with Miss Reagan.  For the first time she had a bad fever and we couldn’t get it to break.  She is such a healthy little girl and normally has so much energy.  We found that she was tired, sluggish, unfocused, and simply not being her normal little Reagan self.  It is so sad to see your baby not feeling well.  She has had mini episodes of not feeling well but nothing like this before.  After 3 days of high fevers and her little lips, hands, and feet occasionally turning blue we decided to take her to urgent care.  Her oxygen levels were completely normal and her vitals looked good.  She still had a high fever but we got lots of good tips from the doctor.  Being a parent is scary and I am always questioning if I am doing the right thing.  We had to go with our gut and ended up feeling so much better about the decision to take her.  Knowing she is ok, has a completely normal fever range for young infants, and that the “blue” issue ended up being nothing was such a relief.  

Miss Anything? ALL OF IT!!! So ready to have this little peach!

Movement: Baby has been moving the same for awhile now.  I’m still feeling a foot tucked under my right rib cage and can occasionally see the foot pop out.  No distinct foot imprint like in the movies, but definitely a bulge.  

Food cravings: Almost NO appetite whatsoever.  This is normal in the 3rd trimester and can even be coupled with a reduction or plateau in weight gain. I’m trying to remain hydrated.  

Anything making you queasy or sick: Occasional nausea and dizziness.  I have almost no desire to eat and the thought of food makes me feel sick most days. 

Symptoms: EVERYTHING!!!! 

Have you started to show yet: Mama is busy baby bumping for sure!

Gender prediction: BOY!!! But I have completely fallen in love with the name we chose for a little girl, so secretly I would love another little girl!!!! But we would love a little boy too!!!

Labor Signs: Just normal Braxton Hicks contractions and lots of pressure/tightening of my abdomen!!!!

Belly Button in or out? OUT

Wedding rings on or off? On but I am noticing some swelling in my feet and hands.  

Happy or Moody most of the time: Oh man, MOODY, HAPPY, CONFUSED, ANXIOUS!!! Feeling all the “feels” there are to feel.  

Looking forward to: BEING DONE!!!! And having a sweet little peach of a baby in my arms. I’m excited to give breastfeeding another try.  Reagan didn’t take to breastfeeding, and lets be honest, either did I.  But i’m feeling much more confident and dedicated to sticking it out and not defaulting to my pump. I’m also so looking forward to seeing how Miss Reagan does with being around the new baby. She LOVES being around other children and her new nickname is the “social butterfly.”  Whenever we go out in public she is the bell of the ball and people seem incredibly drawn to her energy.  

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Baby Haguewood #2 – 34 Weeks

34 weeks pregnant

How far along? 34 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: +20lbs. Making progress.  

Maternity clothes? YEP! Lots of regular clothes, sweatshirts, and some maternity bottoms mixed in.  Other than a few more pairs of my all-time favorite maternity leggings and these amazing Pure Body Maternity Tees from the Gap, I didn’t really invest anything as far as a maternity wardrobe.  Once again, most of my pregnancy was during the colder months so I didn’t have to worry about Summer maternity attire.  I personally love a low-rise maternity pant over a full panel maternity pant.  My belly gets so itchy and I hate having a thick band wrapped around my midsection.  

Stretch marks? No

Sleep: Up most nights with pregnancy insomnia.  Lots of naps during the day while Reagan is still napping twice a day.  

Best moment this week: I had a few days this week were my production was through the roof.  Most days I feel like a mom zombie because I barely sleep at night. But not this week.  I still slept like crap but nesting was kicking in big time and I was able to check quite a few items off my to do list.  It feels so good to be getting closer to the end, and there is definitely something to be said for the piece of mind that “being prepared” brings.  I know if I were to go into labor at this time, while not ideal, at least we would be ready to go and could make the best of it.  Keep cooking in there little baby.

Have you told family and friends? Yep!

Worst moment this week: Rib pain has started this week.  The baby is sitting up high in my rib cage and likes to kick the right side of my ribs.  Ouch!  

Miss Anything? All the normal stuff at this point.  Mostly I’m just ready to not be pregnant anymore.  Its such a weird paradox.  When I wasn’t pregnant, all I wanted was to be pregnant AGAIN.  Now, i’m so ready to be DONE!!!!!!!! And I sort of don’t want to ever be pregnant again.  We’ll see what happens and what the future brings. 

Movement: Lots of kicks and rolls.  Lots of Braxton hicks contractions and intense tightening. 

Food cravings: Pecans and Craisins.  Ice water and plain seltzer water.  I think the sparkling water makes my tummy feel better.  

Anything making you queasy or sick: Everything.  My stomach is about the size of a golf ball these days and I tend to just graze on everything.  The though of eating a full meal makes me nauseous.   

Symptoms: Just normal 3rd trimester stuff.  Whacky sleeping, hip pain, light nausea, back and rib pain, some headaches, low energy, and difficulty breathing.  All of which go away right after the baby is born.  Hubby says I sound like Darth Vader on a regular basis.  

Have you started to show yet: Oh yes.  People stop me in the grocery store all the time.  The frequent comment I seem to get over and over again, “Is Reagan going to have a little brother or little sister?” Then I have to explain that we are not finding out the gender, which surprises EVERYONE!!!! 

Gender prediction: BOY!!! People say I look like i’m carrying a boy. I feel like I look exactly the same as my last pregnancy.  

Labor Signs: Lots of Braxton hicks contractions, tightening, and a few bursts of pain that feel like contractions.  They are so random and short though, definitely not real labor yet. But things are moving in the right direction. 

Belly Button in or out? Out

Wedding rings on or off? On but only when I go out in public.  My hands and fingers are starting to feel slightly swollen.  I didn’t get any swelling until around 37 weeks with my last pregnancy.  

Happy or Moody most of the time: Mixture of both.  

Looking forward to: Hitting the 37 week mark.  This is considered “term” for pregnancy which means that if the baby comes then we don’t have to spend any time in the NICU and baby will be fully developed.  Slightly smaller but still a healthy and functioning baby.  I will be ready to go anytime after 37 weeks.  

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Baby Haguewood #2 – 33 Weeks

33 weeks pregnant baby #2

How far along? 33 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: +19lbs. FINALLY broke the 18lbs. mark.  Keep growing little baby!!!

Maternity clothes? YEP! But clearly i’m still trying to squeeze into my regular shirts, evidence above in pic. My lovely Lulu Lemon tank will be nice and stretched out. But it is so soft and comfortable I want to live and sleep in it. 

Stretch marks? No. Checking obsessively daily!!!! 

Sleep: Sleep is totally whacked out.  Officially beyond uncomfortable. Hubby finally remarked on how much I get up and toss and turn. Apparently i’m interrupting his beauty rest. HAHA. 

Best moment this week: Had a few hours to myself, toddler free, and got my hair done. BYE BYE scary roots.  Only downside is that sitting in a chair for that long is really uncomfortable.  I had to get up and walk around multiple times during my appointment to release the pressure on my back.  I felt so silly in the salon just cruising around.

Have you told family and friends? Yep!

Worst moment this week: Nothing tragic, just the normal pregnancy routine.  Feeling extra emotional this week though.  Also had a minor freak out at whats left on my to do list for baby.  So not like me to be on the ball with this stuff. But I just don’t have the motivation or energy to do anything. 

Miss Anything? Sleep, not having to pee every five minutes AND it would be nice if I stopped having mini leaky pee sessions every time I sneeze or cough.  The JOYS of pregnancy and growing a human :). 

Movement: Movement has been all over the place.  Its crazy how much anxiety this causes me.  The baby either moves all the time or not at all which totally freaks me out. 

Food cravings: Chicken salad, Mexican food, and ice water!

Anything making you queasy or sick: Occasional waves of nausea but its not triggered by anything in particular. 

Symptoms: Normal stuff. 

Have you started to show yet: YEP

Gender prediction: BOY!!!

Labor Signs: No but I have lots of braxton hicks when i’m moving around and the occasional legit contraction if I don’t drink enough water!

Belly Button in or out? Out

Wedding rings on or off? On but slightly swollen. 

Happy or Moody most of the time: Mix of both. Extremely emotional these days and ready to be done. 

Looking forward to: Continuing to check items off my to do list. 

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33 weeks pregnant baby #2

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Baby Haguewood #2 – 32 Weeks

32 weeks pregnant with number 2

How far along? 32 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: +18lbs. I can’t seem to make the hump over this weight.  I know a healthy minimum is 25lbs.  We still have a few weeks to go. Most weight is typically gained in the last weeks of pregnancy when baby is bulking up. I shouldn’t be complaining about “not” gaining weight. 

Maternity clothes? YEP!  And choices are running low.  I am so thankful I won’t have to extend into a summer pregnancy, but I was looking forward to lots of maxi dresses and flowy baby bump pics.  I suppose that will translate into flowy postpartum maxi dresses instead.  Hoping and praying I can get my post-baby #2 body back quickly for summer bikinis.  The minimal weight gain helps I suppose. I should probably slow down on the Ben and Jerry’s ice cream. 

Stretch marks? No

Sleep: Lots and lots of pregnancy insomnia.  I’ve been trying to drink EXTRA water throughout the day and cut off water consumption after 8pm.  This has helped a bit with the nighttime bathroom trips significantly.  

Best moment this week: I am so proud of myself this week because it has been a tough week, but DAMN, I made it through and my family made it through.  I unexpectedly hurt my back and have been facing some anemic like pregnancy symptoms that have made moving around and feeling good/positive a major challenge. I’ve been in bed and struggling to get around.  

Have you told family and friends? Yep!

Worst moment this week: Awwww I hurt my back and was semi-bedridden.  I have never had any kind of major injury, and i’m not saying thats what this was, but it was super scary.  I have given birth once before but I knew that pain was only temporary.  This was excruciating and beyond the feelings of having contractions.  Plus, I didn’t know how long the pain would last.  Back injuries can go on for weeks and months, and because i’m pregnant there is nothing they can provide for relief like muscle relaxers.  I was just curled up in a ball on the floor crying non-stop from the pain and anxiety.  My mom was so sweet and came and helped with Reagan while I was struggling.  I was able to go to the Chiropractor and got a few adjustments as well as a pregnancy massage to help the damaged muscle and ribs heal.  This made it worse for a few days but ultimately helped the healing process and by the end of the week I was feeling so much better.  I could finally sleep again, was taking multiple Epsom salt baths a day to relieve the pain, and used my favorite Stress Away essential oil to keep calm and breathe away the pain.  I also found the most amazing chronic pain meditation app that I would listen to to take my mind off the pain.  Its amazing how the mind can literally “think away” the physical sensations of pain.  I’ve been using this regularly at night to help get myself to sleep. Having experienced labor and contractions, I can easily say this was so much worse.  My heart goes out to anyone struggling with chronic pain issues.  

Miss Anything? Feeling normal. I’m definitely appreciating that while the final weeks of pregnancy are “uncomfortable,” they are nothing to the feelings of dealing with an injury or chronic pain.  So other than missing a margarita I am just thankful to be feeling better finally.  Its such a relief to know that I can actually ENJOY my final weeks of pregnancy instead of just waiting around to give birth in major pain.  

Movement: Baby #2 is moving sporadically. Baby is much more active in the evening and tends to be quiet and calm during the day. 

Food cravings: Not really.  Eating in general doesn’t sound appealing.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope.  But I did have several puking episodes from the pain I was feeling in my back. 

Symptoms: All the pregnancy “feels” plus a few extras because of the back and rib pain.  But things are looking UP!!!!

Have you started to show yet: YEP

Gender prediction: BOY!!!

Labor Signs: Nope

Belly Button in or out? Out

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: It was a rough week but I am happy to be feeling better!!!!

Looking forward to: Sunshine and warmer temps. I am so grateful to be feeling better and now I just want to soak up every second of the nice weather we are having.  Mommy needs a tan and the sunshine is lifting my mood so much.  I am getting so excited to meet the little gummy bear growing in my belly and Reagan is excited to be a BIG SISTER!!!!!

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Baby Haguewood #2 – 31 Weeks

31 weeks baby #2

How far along? 31 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Still only+18lbs. I was at 21lbs. with Reagan at this point in my last pregnancy. 

Maternity clothes? YEP!

Stretch marks? Nothing yet.  Thank goodness and fingers crossed. 

Sleep: With the help of epsom salt baths and lots of lavender essential oil spray i’m hanging in there. 

Best moment this week: Daddy turned 30 this week.  We had so much celebrating him and everything he has accomplished in his 30 years on this Earth.  Also a bonus, we went on a walk as a family and I was able to chug along for a full 4 miles.  Totally crushed it.  Still working on finding a balance between resting enough and staying active but not overdoing it.  Tricky Tricky Tricky. 

Have you told family and friends? Yep!

Worst moment this week: We went out to dinner to celebrate my hubby and I SOOOOOO BADLY wanted a drink!!! Just to get out of the house, enjoy a nice meal, and relax was completely wonderful.  A nice glass of wine OR even better, a margarita would have been AMAZING. We still had so much fun and Reagan did great.  One of my best pieces of advice to new parents…take your kids everywhere.  Don’t be afraid if they misbehave.  Its good for them to learn that fits and tantrums don’t derail LIFE and we keep on trucking no matter what. 

Miss Anything? I miss having my body to myself.  But I LOVE the feeling of our sweet little gummy bear moving around in my tummy.  Those moments and the weeks are dwindling.  I need to just soak up every second of what it feels like to be growing a tiny human being.  

Movement: BIG rolls and BIG jabs.  Reagan moved a lot but this baby has super exaggerated movements that are huge.  Think Alien type movements were my tummy is distended in two different directions at the same time. Totally bizarre.  The hubby and I watch the baby move in bed at night and are blown away at how different this baby is compared to Miss Reagan. We are so excited to know what we are having.  Only a few more weeks.  

Food cravings: Ben and Jerry’s ice cream!!!

Anything making you queasy or sick: Morning sickness has made another appearance.  Small meals and carbs with every meal make a huge difference.  

Symptoms: Feeling all the pregnancy FEELS! D-Day is coming. 

Have you started to show yet: I’m definitely either pregnant OR hiding a basketball under my shirt 24/7!

Gender prediction: BOY!!! But I really have no idea.  I was so positive during my first pregnancy, mothers intuition and all, that Reagan was a BOY too.  Definitely wrong.  So this time I truly have no idea. 

Labor Signs: Nada but lots of braxton hicks contractions and a few real ones mixed in there as well. All totally normal. My body is just practicing for the real thing, 🙂

Belly Button in or out? OUT

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody this week.  My emotions have been on a constant rollercoaster and I feel a bit unhinged.  Having a birthday to celebrate and family in town has definitely helped!!!!

Looking forward to: Easter weekend!!!! 

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31 weeks baby #2

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Baby Haguewood #2 – 30 Weeks

30 week pregnancy chalkboard

How far along? 30 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: +18lbs. 

Maternity clothes? YEP! 

Stretch marks? Nothing yet. I definitely feel a little bigger for this pregnancy and have been slathering on the Mustela Cream still. I think I’m more concerned about getting stretch marks on my bust and tummy at this point.  

Sleep: I have officially accepted that sleep has changed and won’t go back to normal until the new baby is almost 10 months old.  I’m planning out all the movies and shows I will be watching on Netflix and considered getting a Kindle to read during those late night nursing sessions.  I’ve got a pile of parenting books that I am dying to get to. During the day Miss Reagan keeps me on my toes so casual readying is just out.  At night i’m so tanked that I can barely keep my eyes open, let alone read a book.  Night time sleep is restless, full of trips to the restroom, and i’m constantly switching from side to side.  Totally normal stuff and completely expected at this point in pregnancy. 

Best moment this week: We made it through another week and had a successful check-up at the OBGYN.  Everything is looking good and we are just cruising and counting down the days.

Have you told family and friends? Yep!

Worst moment this week: Hip pain, lower back pain, and round ligament pain.  Every time I move or shift from side-to-side in bed, I can hear my hips and pelvis cracking and popping.  This is the point in pregnancy where the body starts producing a specific hormone called Relaxin that softens all the ligaments in the pelvis to prepare for birth.  So much fun.  Its not too bad but does make me feel like i’m 90. Getting in and out of bed id difficult and i’m so grateful that Reagan is learning to walk as bending down to pick her up is getting painful.  

Miss Anything? Everything and nothing.  I’m trying to embrace all the pregnancy “feels” and just remember that this is part of the process of growing a little human.  I see how much Reagan has grown and developed and I almost start crying. Can I get an amen for pregnancy hormones.  Watching her grow from a little baby into a toddler is so magical. She is developing this goofy little personality and is slowly becoming her own person. Knowing I get to see that process in action again is so exciting and makes missing out on sleep and margaritas totally worth it. 

Movement: Baby Haguewood #2 is a little more mellow than Reagan was in the womb.  He/She has always had a lower and steady heart rate, usually in the low 140’s, and moves consistently but not radically.  Reagan always went crazy in my belly and loved moving at night when I was laying down. This baby still moves often but consistently throughout the day.  I did start doing kick counts daily to watch baby’s movement.  

Food cravings: Ice water throughout the day AND ice cream at night.  I’m trying to really pace myself on the ice cream consumption.  I get a terrible sweet tooth in the evening and look forward to eating a little ice cream every night.  Its a bad habit but seriously makes me HAPPY and makes these last few weeks bearable. I’m trying to cut myself some slack and just roll with things.  

Anything making you queasy or sick: Occasional episodes of morning sickness and i’ve noticed when I get upset or feel overwhelmed I get extremely nauseous.  I’ve always had terrible anxiety and actually take medication for it, but this seems magnified in the final trimester of pregnancy. My doctor has me weaning down my meds in preparation for delivery which is slightly stressful.  I’m working on staying calm, practice relaxing breathing exercises, meditation, and warm epsom salt and lavender baths every night make a huge difference.  

Symptoms: All the feels.  

Have you started to show yet: Yep.  Luckily i’m all belly and all baby.  I have noticed some swelling in my legs and feet.  Sitting down and putting my feet up definitely helps.  Water retention has begun as well.  I’ve noticed the puffiness and night sweats that signal oh so lovely pregnancy related water retention.  

Gender prediction: BOY or GIRL!!!! I have no idea this time.  We did finalize our name picks and are so excited for either gender at this point.  

Labor Signs: Nada but lots and lots of braxton hicks contractions. 

Belly Button in or out? Out and tight. 

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: HAPPY but definitely moments of emotional breakdowns and anxiety.  

Looking forward to: D-Day!!! I know I still have 10 weeks to go but i’m already ready to be done.  

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Baby Haguewood #2 – 29 Weeks

week 29 pregnancy chalkboard

How far along? 29 WEEKS!!!! 

Total weight gain/loss: +18lbs. Averaging about a pound per week and hopefully it stays that way.  I’ve been walking when I can to stay active and keep the baby weight off.  I’ve hit that point in my pregnancy where i’m uncomfortable all the time and its just an uphill climb from here.  Sticking it out, remembering why i’m hurting, and how much I love the sweet little baby already keeps my mind in check.  In the end, its all worth it.  Funny how you forget the challenges the third trimester brings. I suppose thats a good thing! 

Maternity clothes? YEP! Just ordered some more of my favorite maternity leggings and a capri version to get me through the warmer summer months that are coming.  The two pairs I have are starting to get worn out and Gap.com has them on sale for 40% off.  YES PLEASE.  Even if your not pregnant, these are the best leggings I have ever worn! I’m super pumped to try the capri version.  

Gap Pure Body Low-Rise Leggings

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Gap Pure Body Low-Rise Capri Leggings

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Stretch marks? Nope! I’ve upped my moisturizing game.  Slathering on the Mustela Cream and a basic CocoaButter Lotion every chance I get. 

Sleep: We are surviving.  Sleep doesn’t exists anymore.  But that will be the norm once Baby arrives anyway. I am able to lay down and nap or at least put my feet up to prevent swelling when Reagan goes down.  Other than that, we are in survival mode.  I’m honestly trying to have a better mindset and attitude about it then that.  Its all mental at this point and each day that i’m uncomfortable means baby is getting one more day of putting weight on and growth and development in my belly.  That in itself is worth every second of being uncomfortable.  ***Wondering how many effin’ times i’ve typed the word “uncomfortable” in this post.  This must be the essence of pregnancy at this point in the third trimester. 

Best moment this week: I finished up my first deep cleaning project successfully and was able to get five Instant Pot Chicken Enchilada freezer meals put away for when the baby arrives. To read the post and get the recipe click HERE! I wasn’t sure I would actually accomplish my goal of doing these tasks, but i’m glad I toughed it out.  It felt so good to cross this off my master “Baby To Do List.”

Have you told family and friends? Yep!

Worst moment this week: SWELLING!!!! EVERYWHERE!!!! I don’t remember having this much swelling at this point in my last pregnancy, but everything I read says it is completely normal.  I have no history of toxemia or preeclampsia and they check me every time I go to the doctor.  SO…i’m assuming its just normal swelling and pregnancy symptoms at this point.  I’m trying to stay off my feet as much as possible and will continue to keep an eye on it. 

Miss Anything? Not today. I’m simply trying to live in the moment and enjoy the belly I have.  I really do love seeing my pregnant belly in the mirror and i’m trying to soak up the feelings and kicks of baby moving around. 

Movement: Baby is active in there for sure. I started doing the kick counts this week just to make sure that everything is consistent and strong. 

Food cravings: Pink Lady apples and ice water!!! I’m thirsty all the time and can’t get enough! 

Anything making you queasy or sick: Feeling GREAT!!!!

Symptoms: STILL feeling all the feels. 

Have you started to show yet: Yep, feeling BIG for sure. And puffy! 🙁

Gender prediction: I’m officially switching to team BOY!!! 

Labor Signs: Nada

Belly Button in or out? Out. Reagan thinks its very amusing to push my belly button and say “Ba Ba.” So cute watching her little brain try and process why Mommy is looking funny these days. 

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy but super emotional these days. Random outbursts and uncontrollable crying are slowly sneaking their way into my life.  I know its hormone related and usually occurs around the same time of day. 5pm is the witching hour and I can mentally prepare and work to calm myself and keep stress triggers at a minimum.  A HOT epsom salt and lavender bath usually does the trick. 

Looking forward to: Being 30 weeks and hitting single digits in terms of weeks to go.  

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Baby Haguewood #2 – 28 Weeks

week 28 chalkboard

How far along? 28 weeks with Baby Haguewood #2

Total weight gain/loss: +17lbs.

Maternity clothes? YEP!  My all time favorite leggings, good for maternity and non-maternity, are these PureBody Low Rise Leggings from theGap. THEY ARE AMAZING!!!!!!! I was able to wear them throughout my last pregnancy and also in the hospital and weeks after my delivery because they are so comfy and stretchy. The low rise is nice because it still hugs my bump but doesn’t fall down.  They are always on sale for 30% or 40% OFF which is the best. 

Stretch marks? Nada. 

Sleep: Not toO shabby this week. I wake up to use the restroom and to stretch out my calves quite a bit. I have had terrible charlie horses and leg cramps with both pregnancies. I always know that if I try and stretch out my legs while laying down that one of my calves will seize up.  My only option in to hop out of bed to release it. Sometimes its so bad and won’t relax that I climb into a hot bath in the middle of the night to relax the muscle.  It always scares the crap out of my husband but is sometimes the only thing to ease the tension. I’ve tried extra water, bananas, extra vitamins, and using a foam roller on my calves prior to bedtime with no luck.  As soon as I have the baby though they immediately stop, or at least they did with Reagan. 

Best moment this week: Daddy felt the baby kick for the first time.  Its sooooo hard to time the baby kicks and movement. It almost never occurs whene we are both sitting down at the same time with his hands on my belly waiting for a little kick. But baby went for a little jog this week in my belly and we saw some major belly rolls as well as felt multiple kicks.

Have you told family and friends? Yep!

Worst moment this week: Two words…Glucose Test! IT SUCKS!!!!!! I used to think it wasn’t that bad. But it is. 

Miss Anything? This week i’ve really missed having mental clarity.  Pregnancy brain has officially kicked in and i’m a forgetful mess. I have trouble recalling information and if I don’t write it down or put it in my phone then its gone forever.  I never believed in “pregnancy brain,” but its a real thing.  Now that i’ve hit this point in my pregnancy I remember having the same feelings during my last pregnancy. 

Movement: Felt lots this week and Daddy felt some too!!!!!! Once the baby starts moving the reality of a tiny human swimming around in my tummy hits me and is just so exciting. 

Food cravings: AVOCADOS!!! I’ve been eating them almost everyday. 

Anything making you queasy or sick: Feeling GREAT although I did have my first episode of heartburn after eating chicken enchiladas one night. Thank goodness Tums aren’t off limits during pregnancy or I would be screwed. 

Symptoms: Still feeling all the feels there are to feel. Pregnancy is “oh so glorious!!!!”

Have you started to show yet: Totally!

Gender prediction: GIRL!!!

Labor Signs: Nada

Belly Button in or out? OUT

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: HAPPY but tired. 

Looking forward to: Doing some serious nesting.  We finally got Baby H #2 a crib, I have big plans to DEEP clean the house, and i’m planning on doing lots of meal prepping for when the baby arrives. I did several freezer meals during my last pregnancy and it saved us during the first few months of having a newborn.  I know things will only be amplified this time around as we will also have a toddler. Life and reality are about to smack us in the face friends but we seriously couldn’t be more excited!!!!!!

xoxo Friends,

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Reagan Marie – 12 Months   //   Baby Haguewood #2 – 28 Weeks

Categories CHALKBOARDSPREGNANCY

Baby Haguewood #2 – 27 Weeks

27 week chalkboard

Happy First Day of SPRING!!!!!!

How far along? 27 weeks with Little Baby Haguewood #2. I decided that I really wanted to do pregnancy chalkboards for my final trimester.  I’m a little sad that I missed the first two, but alas, I can only do the final. 

Total weight gain/loss: +16lbs. Two pounds less then with my first pregnancy. 

Maternity clothes? YEP! And options are running low.  Even though I weigh less, I feel so much bigger during this pregnancy then my first. Maybe i’m just way less motivated to look cute with a one year old to take care of also.  Yoga pants and athletic clothing for the WIN!!!!

Stretch marks? Nope.  I’ve been way less diligent about putting on my stretch mark cream this pregnancy. I lathered it on heavy for my first pregnancy and didn’t get a single stretch mark.  I think its a combination of good genes but also this miracle Mustela cream.  I made a point to use it on my bust as well and didn’t get a single stretch mark…knock on wood. 

Sleep: Depends on the day. Some nights I sleep really really well and others i’m lucky if I get two hours combined.  Reagan is sleeping like a champ and doesn’t make a peep through the night, but Baby #2 is prepping me for hourly feedings and just general exhaustion.  Its actually such a blessing in disguise.  My body would go into total shock if suddenly I had a newborn and was still accustomed to 8-10 hours a night. The body has a weird may of prepping us for motherhood.  To all the first time moms out there, just embrace the fact that sleep won’t really exist anymore and rest and shut your eyes when you can. 

Best moment this week:  Entering the Third and final trimester.  Also 27 weeks is a huge turning point for the viability of the fetus.  At 24 weeks baby has a 10% chance of serving outside the womb. By 26 weeks, that number jumps to 80%.  And finally by 27 weeks, most preemie babies survive without complication with some time in the NICU. As a mom, I am carrying this precious little nugget and I can do a tremendous amount to contribute to the baby’s health and wellbeing, but there is still only so much that can be done should I deliver early.  Knowing that we have hit this milestone is such a blessing and brings so much peace of mind.  Every week that passes from here on out is only making baby stronger and cuter.  This little peanut needs to keep cooking, don’t get me wrong, but I am so grateful to have had a smooth pregnancy this time around.  

Have you told family and friends? Yep! Everyone in our circle knows, including strangers at the grocery store as my belly is POPPING for sure!!!

Worst moment this week: What I call Monday chaos. I am still working three days a week, alas two of which are half days, but by the third day I officially can’t get away with dry shampoo anymore and Reagan is not as patient while I have to get ready for work.  I let her shower with me in the morning which occupies about 15 minutes and then she sometimes will go down for a nap at 9:30 while I dry my hair and throw on some makeup quickly.  We still need to play, read books, practice walking, and cuddle mixed in with all this goodness.  These are the days of her childhood however, and i’m trying to focus less on looking at the chaos as a struggle, and more of just soaking up her being a sweet little girl who loves me and wants to play. Someday she will be in college and i’ll be lucky to get a phone call let alone some cuddles. 

Miss Anything? Drinking, sleeping, looking and feeling skinny, and breathing normal. Hubby calls me Darth Vader.  I can definitely feel baby sitting high in my rib cage and when I sit everything moves around and UP yet again making breathing feel and sound weird. Totally normal pregnancy stuff however. 

Movement: All the time.  The first two trimesters felt so different from my first pregnancy.  With Reagan, when I was active she would just enjoy the ride and sleep away.  And when I needed to sleep she wasn’t having it and wanted to rock out and have a dance party in my belly.  With Baby #2, when i’m active the baby is moving and jamming along with me and when I sleep baby wants to sleep too. This all shifted in the third trimester however, and now this pregnancy feels exactly like my first.  It makes me think we might be having another girl?!?!?!?!

Food cravings: Cheerios and milk.  Raisins.  Roasted veggies with balsamic vinegar. And ice water.  

Anything making you queasy or sick: Feeling GREAT!!!!

Symptoms: I’m feeling all the normal pregnancy feels at this point.  Restless legs, nightly leg cramps, heartburn, shortness of breathe, dizziness, general exhaustion, emotional outbursts, 6-8 nightly trips to the bathroom, and round ligament and pelvis pain.  All totally normal and exactly what I was feeling at this point in my pregnancy last time. 

Have you started to show yet: YEP!

Gender prediction: GIRL!!!! 

Labor Signs: Nada

Belly Button in or out? OUT! 

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: HAPPY…hubby might disagree though. 

Looking forward to: SPRING and being able to walk outside in the sunshine.  I have been way less active for this pregnancy then my last and I want to start walking, like power walking, with Reagan in these last few weeks of pregnancy.  The fresh air clears my mind and I sleep so much better at night.  

xoxo Friends,

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Reagan Marie – 12 months   &   Baby Haguewood #2 – 27 weeks!!!!!

Categories BABYPREGNANCY

Baby Haguewood Number TWO

So now that i’ve officially made it through Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, the start of the busy season at work, and Miss Reagan’s first birthday I feel like I can finally wrap my head around the fact that WE ARE PREGNANT AGAIN!!!!

Surprise.  Haha. If you know us at all or follow me on Instagram, then you already know that we are expecting our second child. We officially found out somewhat unexpectedly on September 30th of 2016. We weren’t trying to get pregnant but we weren’t preventing pregnancy either.  We had always planned on having our babies close together but definitely not this close.  All is well and we couldn’t be more excited or thrilled about our second little gummy bear cooking in my belly.

Baby Haguewood #2’s story so far has been very low-key and uneventful.  I was feeling extremely tired and fatigued.  I had a sneaking suspicion that I might be pregnant, but at the same time Reagan was going through a small sleep regression and I had just transitioned to going back to work.  Life was busy and our hearts were FULL.  I went in for a hair appointment and remember feeling so sick and nauseous.  After my appointment I decided to swing by the grocery store for a few things while I was baby free. A very rare occasion.  I just so happened to find myself in the feminine aisle and there they were, starring me in the face. Pregnancy tests everywhere.  I grabbed a couple just for the peace of mind I knew it would give me.  I knew I would be so early in the pregnancy that I might not even get an accurate result, but I was nervous about it and just wanted to know.

I waited until the next morning to take the test.  In fact I was so anxious about the result that I woke up at 3:30am and sneaked downstairs to take the test.  Blurry eyed and foggy, I took the test totally expecting a big fat negative result.  But…there it was. In the darkness of the early morning hours I was starring at a POSITIVE pregnancy test.  Here I was, 6 months postpartum from my first pregnancy, and we were pregnant AGAIN!!!! I was SO shocked and SO excited.

I really hadn’t been expecting a positive result. Secretly I was hoping to get a negative and that meant I could go back to bed with my mind cleared of the anxiety. NOPE! Now I was wide awake and immediately started flipping through Pinterest boards to figure out how to tell Jeffrey.  I took a quick video of the tests to document the moment I found out in the early hours of the morning.  I couldn’t believe it. I made a cute card for Jeffrey and left it on his desk to find that morning.  Reagan woke up around 5:30am and Jeffrey was ready to head downstairs to his office by 6am.  We were casually waiting down there just hanging out.  When he asked why I was awake, I simply said “I just couldn’t sleep and Reagan was awake already so I got up.”

It took him a few minutes to find the card and then another full minute to digest what it was actually saying.  I was just standing in the doorway giggling and jumping up and down with Reagan in my arms. His response, “Wait, you’re pregnant???” YEP, we are pregnant again.  Baby Haguewood #2 here we come!!!!

pregnancy test for baby number two

After lots of hugs and excitement we started to settle into the fact that we were going to be bringing another little human into this world.  We quickly figured out my due date June 9, 2017 and calculated that I was around 3-4 weeks pregnant.  That day I called our OBGYN and made our first appointment for 8 weeks to confirm the pregnancy.

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I was in full Halloween prep mode and keeping our little peanut a secret wasn’t difficult.  We did tell our families and decided to wait until after Christmas to tell the world.  I decided that I wanted to do chalkboards again to announce the pregnancy and had every intention of doing weekly boards to document the pregnancy.  Nope. No such luck.  We made it through Halloween, Reagan’s first Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years. We celebrated my 29th Birthday on New Years Eve and then I was in First Birthday Party planning mode. Weekly boards never happened, but we did manage to take these cute announcement photos the week of Christmas.  The photo quality turned out really poorly but at least we have the photos to document the moment.  I was around 16 weeks and already showing pretty heavily. Baby #2 definitely pops much quicker then #1.

pregnancy announcment

pregnancy announcment

16 weeks pregnant

***16 Weeks Pregnant***

Reagan started crawling right after Thanksgiving so suddenly life was much more active. It was so fun though planning Christmas and having her crawling through piles of wrapping paper.  Holidays with babies are so much more FUN!!! I had every intention of starting my chalkboards at 20 weeks which fell shortly after the new year. Perfect right? Nope. Still no chalkboards.

Reagan popped out her first tooth on New Years Day and we were immediately thrust into life with a teething infant. Nights and her moods were super up and down. Still no chalkboards.  We went in for our 20 week ultrasound and got to see our beautiful little baby kicking and wiggling around.  The second photo is of both Reagan’s 20 week sonogram (TOP) and this baby (BOTTOM) side by side. I can’t get over how much their facial shapes are similar from the side profile.  Reagan turned out pretty cute so I have high hopes again.  IMG_8728

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***26 Weeks Pregnant***

We made it through the awesomeness that was Reagan’s First Birthday Party at the beginning of the month, and that brings us to date and the start of the third trimester.  Things are calming down and I feel like I can really do my chalkboards now. So I am fully committed to doing chalkboards for the final trimester. I already have week 27, my current week, done and ready to post! I am starting to work through a mental checklist of what we need to do before baby arrives and put together a list of what we need to get.  Not much this time around as we have pretty much everything including gender neutral baby clothes in case we have a sweet little man.

We are just so excited about Little Baby Haguewood #2 and I can’t wait to start nesting and prepping for our perfect little second baby.  Stay tuned for lots more blog content and consistent posts.  It is really important to me to give this baby the same attention as I did with Reagan.  Already trying to balance being a parent to TWO sweet babies. HAHA.

Thanks for reading Friends,

xo xo

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Categories BABY

“Our Little Bunny is ONE” – Reagan’s First Birthday Party

Last weekend I threw little miss an awesome First Birthday Party.  We had so much FUN and the biggest thank you to everyone who gave up their Saturday afternoon to hop on over and celebrate our sweetest little bunny, Reagan Marie.  It was just so much fun.  Normally planning everything is what really gets my creative juices flowing, but the actual day and seeing Reagan so happy made my heart sing.

After Christmas I started searching and searching for cute party themes. I didn’t want anything corny like pink sparkles, and ultimately thats just not Reagan.  She has such an independent and unique goofy personality that I just knew a cookie cutter first birthday wasn’t going to work for us.  Besides, there is no way in hell that I could go for pre-made party decorations. I love a good DIY project and throwing parties and decorating spaces is totally my jam.

Given that her birthday is in March, I knew we had to do something indoors.  We still have like 2 feet of snow around our neck of the woods. Which is so funny, because when I gave birth to her last year it totally felt like Spring with sunshine and green grass.  Such a difference this year. I didn’t want to spend a small fortune on her party and knew I needed to get creative. I found the bunny theme on Pinterest and voila, party perfection!

I gutted out my office/craft room and couldn’t believe the treasures and endless supply of stuff I had snuck away over the past few years.  I raided all my Easter decorations and went to work putting together a party.  I knew the garden/bunny theme would be great for her and I can leave up most of the decor for Easter next month.

Most of the tangible decorations I pulled out of my Easter decor and then I made a ton of stuff using random craft supplies that I found.  I snuck in a HUGE goodwill run full of random crap as well which felt really good.  I’ll try to provide links to things that I did purchase, links to old products if they are still available or something similar, and links to DIY tutorials that I used or made up.  Most of the ideas can be found on Pinterest and I’ll provide the links to the cake stuff I used to build her birthday cake.

I know throwing your child a BIG first birthday is totally cliche these days, BUT it is so much FUN!  I totally get why parents do it.  As a guest, i’m sure its a little boring but we so appreciate everyone who supported us and helped us celebrate our baby girl. We literally couldn’t love her more than we do and i’m sure that was more than evident at her party!!!!

I completely fell in love with the vibrant greens, pinks, and purples, the bright sunlight coming in through the windows and of course all the bunny and garden vintage looking decor! So much fun and so perfect!

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

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1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

Green Moss Table Runner // White Cake Stand // Jade Cake Stand // Tin Tiered Tray // Gold Polka Dot Paper Plates // Gold Silverware // “Reagan is One” Custom Cake Topper

I opted to go for a light lunch, tons of fresh fruit and veggies, and a dessert bar displaying all her cakes and treats.  The dessert table was so pretty and I was ECSTATIC with how the cakes turned out. It was just a really simple layout on this Green Moss Table Runner and a long end table we already owned. I made her a mini 6″ basic vanilla cake for photos and her little cake smash.  But I ordered a cake from our FAVORITE dessert place.  They did our wedding cake, my bridal shower cake, and multiple other events and birthdays.  It was my favorite white cream cheese cake with rum raspberry filling!!!! SOOOOO GOOD! I also made THESE “bunny tail” sugar cookie truffles, THESE “lettuce” oreo truffles, THESE “carrot” strawberries, and pudding cups with crushed oreo and a carrot strawberry on top!

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

I moved our dining table to the side of the room and used our mirror as a backdrop with some hanging garlands that I made out of old scrap paper. Most of the table decor was a bunch of random mishmash from our house including some old glass vases, mason jars for flowers, craft crates, faux boxwood green balls, and ceramic bunnies from my Easter collection.

Lunch was chicken salad on croissants made to look like carrots with bits of parsley coming out the end, a gluten free and paleo option on beds of lettuce, the yummiest cheese ball recipe HERE, cheddar bunnies, a full garden of fresh veggies, and strawberry, blueberry, and raspberry patches. It was pretty easy other than lots and lots of washing, chopping, and assembling everything right before people showed up. But it seriously turned out way prettier than I had pictured in my head.

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

Beverages were strawberry lemonade, fresh cucumber water, and fresh lemon water.  I was going to do champagne but decided not to at the last minute.  My sister and I are both pregnant and we had lots of people who don’t drink at all.  Not to mention lots and lots of little ones and it didn’t seem right to have alcohol for some reason. Totally not like me one bit…must be the pregnancy hormones.

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

Bar Cart // Beverage Dispenser // Glass Pitchers

I made the cutest favor bags for our guests and then completely forgot to hand them out to people.  Totally my fault for putting them on the bottom of the bar cart.  Out of sight and out of the way.  I found the cutest vintage bunny graphics on The Graphic Fairy.com and printed them out on basic paper bags with the added wording, “Thank You for Hopping By.” I added a doily, some pink satin ribbon, a white bunny tail, and filled them with THIS recipe for “Bunny Bait” that I found on Pinterest. They were just adorable and the treat inside is so addicting!

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

Baby Girls Mint Flutter Dress // Blush Lace-Up Sandals // White Maxi Dress

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

Baby Girls Mint Flutter Dress  //  Blush Lace-up Flats  // Bunny Ears Homemade *Tutorial coming soon

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

Baby Girls Mint Flutter Dress // White Maxi Dress

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

1st Birthday Setup - Bunny Garden Party

Baby Girls Mint Flutter Dress

The whole party was just spectacular.  We watched a bunch of little ones play together, ate lunch, sang “Happy Birthday,” and watched Reagan go to town on a piece of cake.  The guys played pool in the basement and watched the NFL combine on tv.  It was so low-key and so perfect.  I intentionally went into the whole day with zero expectations on how the decor, food, people, or Reagan’s behavior would turn out. AND…everything turned out so perfect and couldn’t have been more awesome.  These kids parties can get out of control pretty quickly and become all about the parents and the production.  While I might have gone a little overboard on the decor, I never lost sight of the true purpose of the day…celebrating our sweet Reagan Marie.  She is such a little miracle.  It was a fantastic day and again thank you to everyone who came out to celebrate!!!!!

xo xo,

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Categories BABYPREGNANCY

Reagan’s Birth Story

Here is the story of sweet Reagan Marie’s BIRTH on Wednesday, March 2, 2016.

Tuesday, March 1, 2016. Little Baby Haguewood’s birth month had finally arrived.  I had officially made it to 38 weeks and life in general felt strange.  I felt like I was in a day-to-day holding pattern just waiting for something to happen.  I was finally caught up on my chalkboards and feeling exhausted! Bending over and working on my designs was really frustrating in those last few weeks.  I couldn’t bend over because my HUGE belly was getting in the way. I would start to breathe heavy and my poor back was hurting so bad.  I would draw a letter or finish a word and then get up and walk around for a little bit to relieve the pressure on my back and belly. I spent quite a bit of time either laying down flat OR moving around. Sitting stationary was no longer working for me.

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Tuesday morning I lost my mucus plug and couldn’t believe it.  I knew that this occurrence didn’t mean anything other than that things were “moving in the right direction” and my body was preparing itself for delivery.  I had read about this happening but it felt exciting and weird to actually experience it. We were officially getting closer to meeting our sweet little baby. I wrapped up my March 1st blog post and decided to get “pretty” for the day.  We had some plans later on that afternoon and I knew I would feel better if I got up and did my hair and makeup.  I decided to head to Target that morning to just paroose around for a bit and kill some time.  I felt so much better when I was up and moving around.  I had the pregnancy waddle down like a champ and was completely out of breathe after doing a few laps around the store.  Time to head home and get ready for my weekly OB appointment.

I had been attempting to take a daily stock of how I was feeling day-to-day so I would be prepared if anything “labor” related were to happen. Everyone I talked to told me that first time moms usually carry full term and I was still two weeks out.  The night before, I had actually been feeling super off and had slept worse than usual. I had cramps and back pain consistently and had a strange feeling that I might go into labor “soon.”  I made a few mental notes to share these feelings with my doctor that afternoon. Jeffrey was pretty convinced that I was just tired and uncomfortable. He was so helpful in calming me down and helping me to relax. I needed to prepare myself for two more “long” weeks of pregnancy before I was even full term.

We went to the appointment and I was quickly told by the nurse that I definitely wasn’t in labor.  She made a point to again tell me that I would likely go full term and these were normal sensations.  We quickly met with our doctor who confirmed that I was 1cm dilated but definitely not in labor. I still couldn’t shake this feeling that I was going to go into labor soon but with the doctor telling me it wasn’t likely, I decided to try my best to relax and unwind.  After my appointment I took a two hour nap and woke up that evening feeing WEIRD!!! I had pressure and pain.  But honestly, every evening I would get tired and emotional.  Every little ache and pain would push me past my limit and I would cry and take multiple hot baths to try and calm down. I assumed it was just another night of being in the final weeks of my pregnancy.

Jeffrey was sweet enough to make me dinner and I decided to go to bed and watch a movie to relax.  He joined me in our bedroom and was wrapping up some work in our lounge chair while I tried to unwind.  My body was hurting so bad. My belly hurt and I couldn’t get comfortable no matter what position I was in. I kept looking at him thinking I can’t be going into real labor right??? He looked at me like I was crazy.  The whole interaction was so funny and something I will never forget.  I could tell something was going on with my body but there was no way I was really going into labor.  Then it started to hurt really bad.  I climbed into a hot bath to relax.  I felt jittery, overheated, and anxious and had to get out right away.  I remember cupping my head in my hands thinking, “I really need to get ahold of myself.” After a few deep breaths I climbed back into bed and started a movie.  I was feeling a little better.  Thats when it happened…

I was completely relaxed… maybe even starting to doze off a bit.  I felt and heard a huge POP.  My body reacted instinctually and immediately by jumping out of the bed. There was a huge gush of fluid and I immediately looked at Jeffrey and said “holy shit I think my water just broke.” He was staring at me in shock.  I think he was more surprised by how fast I was out of the bed. I hadn’t moved that quickly in the past month due to my humongous belly. He kept asking me if I was sure.  I ran, more like waddled, to the bathroom and there was another gush of pale pink fluid.  At that moment, I was damn sure my water had broke.  The first thought that popped into my head was “I was F**KING right!” I know my body and I knew that I was going to go into labor that day.  Jeffrey calmly came into the bath room and we sorta just stared at each other for a few minutes both not really sure what needed to come next.  We had talked about “the plan” but now it was actually happening. And so were the contractions…

After about a solid five minutes of PURE SHOCK we finally got our heads in the right place and rockted into action. Trying to figure out the phone number for the hospital maternity center was the first task.  I can’t believe I didn’t pre-program the number into my phone.  The next 30 min. were a complete blur of trying to find the right bags and making sure I had mascara and a curling iron between contractions. Super Important items. I had everything ready but nothing was packed.  I decided at the last minute that I needed a different bag and repacked everything.  Some necessary items were still in the laundry and I felt it was necessary to take a quick shower before leaving.

Bags were packed in the car, I was showered and cleaned up, we said goodbye to the puppies and kitties and I did a final once over on the house.  My contractions were about 1 minute apart by this point.  I made our bed quickly and was walking out the bedroom door when there was another huge gush of fluid.  SHIT. Time to clean up again and climb into another fresh pair of leggings.  We quickly cleaned the carpet and finally made it out the door.

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The ride to the hospital was torture because my contractions had picked up the pace.  They were hitting about every 30 seconds. I had zero down time in-between contractions to breathe and relax.  It felt more like a few big huffs and puffs before bracing myself to “breathe” through the next contraction.  Given that it was 11:45 at night we had to go to the ER to get checked in before heading to Labor and Delivery at the Maternity Clinic.  We pulled up to the hospital and suddenly everything felt real. Not to mention the contractions. I was not prepared for the “pain” that comes with contractions. I had mental prepared myself for some really strong pain, but had also convinced myself that “the pain was only temporary” and I could get through it.  True. But oh my GOD, contractions are the most painful thing I’ve ever experienced and i’m a freakin’ cancer survivor people. Labor pains are the real deal.

We got checked in and someone from the Maternity Unit was going to come down and wheel me up to the clinic. Jeffrey left me to go park the car and I was momentarily “on my own” to deal with the contractions.  Another couple in labor came in right after us and the woman could tell I was hurting badly.  She kindly took my hand and asked if this was my first baby? I quickly said all in the same breathe that “yes it was, and my husband was parking the car and my contractions were coming every 30 seconds and were really painful.” She was an absolute godsend in those brief moments.  She was having her 2nd child and helped walk me through what to expect and we “breathed” through a few sets of contractions together. Suddenly a nurse appeared and we were whisked off to the Maternity Clinic.  I was handed a clipboard of paperwork and had one heck of a time attempting to fill it out between contractions. I was officially admitted at 12:05am on Wednesday March 2, 2016.

Finally Jeffrey was back, and I felt like I could breathe again. I had never been so thankful to see my husbands face. A nurse popped around the corner to take us to a triage room to assess my labor status. I got undressed and climbed into a hospital gown. Getting leggings off through my contractions was the toughest part. They checked to make sure I was dilated and having real labor contractions. Which I was…no doubts in that department. 2 cm dilated in fact.  I had been 1cm dilated earlier that day. Apparently they check for amniotic fluid also. CHECK.

Once my labor status was confirmed they wanted to get me into a hospital room and get some fluids going asap. My original birth plan called for waiting as long as possible for any pain intervention. I knew I was going to want it, I just wanted to try and go “natural” for as long as possible.  Well given that my contractions were still 30 seconds apart, I wanted my pain killers ASAP!!! Gripping the edge of the hospital bed and staring at the clock in front of me was all I could do to get through each contraction.  I was instructed to get dressed again and we would head to my labor and delivery room. It took me about 15 minutes to climb back into my leggings given that I was having so many contractions.

For some reason I was dead set on walking to my hospital room. They offered to wheel me down the hallway in a wheelchair but I wasn’t having it.  I could walk to the room. No rhythm or reason for any of my decisions at this point. I was just trying to survive minute to minute. Literally!!!! When we got to the room my nurse showed me the restroom so I could change and get ready for an IV etc.  My contractions were so bad, I spent the next 45 min. in the bathroom all by myself trying to get undressed and into yet another hospital gown. I didn’t want Jeffrey to see me in that state and I really wanted to do it myself. I remember sitting down on the floor at one point in the bathroom between contractions crying and thinking, “how in the hell am I going to survive this? I can’t even get out of the damn bathroom.” Later I found out that poor Jeffrey and the nurses were just sitting in the room listening to me cry and struggle between contractions, waiting for me to come out for 45 minutes because I wouldn’t let anyone come in and help me. Again, not a lot of rational thinking taking place at this point.

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I did finally emerge from the bathroom however, and the next step was to to meet with the night doctor. I was asked about a million medical questions. My contractions were beyond horrendous and the doctor suggested a shot of medicine to “take the edge off.”  I said I wanted my epidural. They agreed immediately.  Normally you don’t get an epidural until your at least 4cm dilated because it can slow the labor progression. I was in such extreme pain however that they wanted to get me some relief as soon as they could.  Because it was late at night/early morning I had my epidural within 10 min. I was terrified. One big needle + my spine = not a good thing.  Also I was getting the “shakes” really bad.  The doctor explained to me that the surge in hormones causes the body to convulse and shake. It was uncontrollable and my knees were banging against each other constantly. I was terrified of shaking and moving, or god forbid having a contraction, while they administered my epidural. I sat hunched over and breathed through 1 single contraction and then my doctor did what she does best. It was over so quickly and I didn’t contract during the procedure. Truly the epidural was the easiest part of the whole labor and delivery and the relief it brings is beyond words.  I went from the most excruciating pain i’ve ever felt in my whole life to complete relaxation and calm.  If your open to pain intervention, I fully and 100% recommend an epidural. It was a game changer. But that is just my experience and I know everyone and every labor is completely different.

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Jeffrey later told me that when I was contracting I would stare at him, and my eyes were so dilated from the pain that he could immediately tell that I wasn’t fully present anymore. That much pain takes you to another place entirely. After my epidural I could relax and breathe.  The pain was completely gone. Like zero pain!!!! The nurse wanted me to sleep for a few hours before my labor progressed any further.  They checked my cervix at 2:30am after the epidural was administered prior to leaving us alone for a bit to sleep.  I was 2.5cm dilated. Not much progress.  I didn’t care at this point.  Jeffrey decided to lay down. He fell asleep immediately and I just laid there for hours soaking up every moment of the experience and what had happened thus far in my labor journey.  I had to be rotated from side to side to keep the epidural working. I laid there for hours listening to the fetal heart rate monitor and the sound of my baby’s beating heart. I’ll never forget that time. I would stare at Jeffery sleeping so peacefully, realizing we were about to become parents. So much calm and peace after the intensity of the contractions I had felt previously.

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***I love that in this picture you can see that it was 2:30am from the clock on the wall. My epidural was kicking in, we were finally alone for the first time since being admitted,  and I was feeling so much BETTER. Therefore my husband can smile again. A very tired, my wife was just in extreme pain smile, but a smile nonetheless.***

Finally 5:30am rolled around. Jeffrey was still asleep and I was being cleaned up and rotated AGAIN. I asked the nurse if she could check my progress. Given my earlier status I was expecting maybe 4cm to 5cm.  Nope. The nurse checked me and said, “oh my, your 9cm dilated.”  I had almost fully progressed in 3 hours. Jeffrey woke up a bit when the nurse came in to check me. He heard the words “9cm” and shot up off the sofa.  “What??? 9cm???” Had I really progressed that far that fast?  Later I found out that my labor and contractions were so intense that the relaxation from the epidural actually made my labor speed up. My body was no longer fighting the pain of the contractions but was working to have this baby. My body wanted to have this baby and it also really NEEDED an epidural to do it apparently.  My body would have been laboring for several more hours than normal if I had gone “natural” because the intensity and frequency of the contractions were too much.

I couldn’t believe that I had progressed so quickly. The pace of the nurses and people in my room went from zero to sixty almost immediately.  Suddenly it was ON…we were going to have this baby…SOON! My labor nurse wanted to give me another hour or so to become fully dilated and she said it would help the baby continue to drop naturally into position. My body was on a roll when it came to moving that baby down and she didn’t want to stop the progress while my epidural was still going strong. That last hour was anything but dull. We quickly made a few phone calls to family to let them know it was almost time and then we braced ourselves for “whatever” was coming next.

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My epidural was still working but the sensations and feelings were becoming much stronger.  I could feel a tremendous amount of pressure and was feeling like it was time to push.  I had a deep “mind-body”  feeling that it was just time. I simply knew my baby was about to be born. My body also decided at this time that I needed to get sick.  I spent almost twenty minutes upright throwing up into a little hospital bag. Again, the doctor informed me that this was from the hormones. I was quickly learning that there is no modesty in labor. By 6:30am I was completely dilated and the nurse had me start with a few practice pushes to get my rhythm and breathing down.  We did pushes for 10 seconds in sets of 3. I was able to relax a bit after the 3 sets and Jeffrey was by my side with a cold wash cloth for my forehead.  My heart rate and blood pressure were all over the place so they had me on an oxygen unit in-between sets.  After the practice pushes I was able to relax for a few minutes while they set up all the supplies for the doctor.  My OB was on call until 7am and then the regular day shift OB was going to take over and my doctor would have her regular day off. I was very close to my doctor and felt entirely comfortable with her. At first I only wanted her to deliver my baby but when it came down to it and we passed that 7am mark, I didn’t care who was down there as long as they were helping to get this baby outta me!!!

I could feel extreme pressure when I was contracting and learned to push with the contractions.  At 7am we started pushing for real and it was EXHAUSTING!!! My whole stomach felt contracted like I was holding one continues abdominal crunch and then there was deep pressure down into my body. Other than the pressure and tightness in my abdomen, I felt NO PAIN whatsoever. Thank you epidural!!!! Really, the pushing phase was just tiring, like running back to back sprints for an hour. The doctor flew into the room for about the last 10 minutes or so.  She was fantastic and extremely helpful with my lady parts and maneuvering baby so the exit was as least damaging as possible. Halfway through I was able to stop pushing and feel the baby’s head. When initial writing my birth plan this was not something I was interested in doing…gross right? Nope, it was completely magical and amazing in the moment. To feel my little baby for the first time before she was even born is something I will never forget. The doctor told me I had two maybe three more pushes and then our baby would be born.  As soon as she said those words, thats when it felt “real” for me. I remember the moment crystal clearly. Only a few more pushes and our baby would be here. After the months of growing and wondering what baby was…it was happening NOW!!! The moment was here. Holding Jeffrey’s hand we pushed and then all of a sudden there SHE was. I saw them pull her out of me and they laid her on my chest face down.

I couldn’t stop looking at this little squishy pink baby. No crying, BIG BIG eyes, and gripping for my chest to hold onto the warmth of my body.  The doctor looked at Jeffrey and said “would you like to announce the gender?” I had in that moment completely forgotten about the gender. I literally couldn’t believe they had just pulled a baby out of me and wasn’t thinking about the gender at all. They flipped baby over and Jeffrey said…”it’s a GIRL!” I looked at him and we couldn’t stop kissing each other and our beautiful baby girl who had been in this world for less than a minute.

At 7am we started pushing and at 7:44am Little Miss Reagan Marie was born into this world.

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What a moment. To say it is something I will never forget feels too cliche to even capture the true nature of what it felt like to hold my daughter for the first time. It was was “otherworldly.” Something rooted so deeply in my soul that I can’t even explain it.

Reagan being born is simply a “feeling and a moment” that I will forever cherish and relive in my memory until the day I die. Reagan’s birth was the most incredible and wonderful experience and I wouldn’t change a second of it. She is perfect and amazing and simply oh so tiny!!! I will never ever forget those first few moments of her life and am so thankful that we were able to document our first few minutes as a family of three.

We love you to the moon and back little Rea Rea!!!

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I know this post is incredible long but I simply had to put all my thoughts and memories down while they are still fresh in these first few months.  I’m sure all the mommies out there can understand the value of our child’s birth story. I’m so thankful I was able to capture the moments in the most authentic way I know how, through writing about my thoughts and feelings.

xo xo Friends,

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Two Months of Reagan Marie

On May 2nd, Little Miss Reagan Marie turned two months old. Time with this sweet angel has simply flown by.  When I was around 35 weeks pregnant, EVERYONE told me to just soak up every moment because it goes by so fast. NO KIDDING.  I can’t believe Reagan is already two months old; she no longer seems like a newborn at all. She is just the sweetest little smiley baby imaginable and we are so in love with her. Watching her grow and change is simply the most wonderful and difficult thing I’ve ever done in my life. So bitter sweet watching your newborn become a baby before your eyes.

Two Months of Reagan Marie

PEDIATRICIAN CHECK-UP & GROWTH: Reagan went in last week for her two month check-up and her first round of immunizations. Baby Girl is in the 50th percentile for height at 22in. and the 25th percentile for weight at 10lbs. 2oz.  She had a nice growth spurt and our pediatrician was very pleased.

Its been so fun to watch her grow and develop.  She is officially too big for her newborn onesies and we finally made the switch out of newborn diapers into size ones. I can still squeeze her into some onesies on a occasion and I saved the very last newborn diaper for her memory box. YES, I AM that mom that saves everything important. Time to go through Baby Girl’s wardrobe and pack up all the itty bitty newborn clothes. I love that she is healthy and growing big and strong, but part of me wants her to stay tiny forever. Her little face has already changed so much compared to her early chubby newborn face. Those little cheeks are very kissable. She is such a pretty little girl and I love that sweet face so much.

EYE COLOR, HAIR, & BABY SMILES: This adorable little lady has officially mastered the art of smiling.  It is her favorite thing to do nowadays. She is a bit of a ham and a totally goofball when it comes to interacting with us. Her personality it just so sweet and funny. We think her eyes are going to remain a beautiful dark blue gray color and her hair is filling in a bit here and there.  It is so thick in the back and then she has the standard baby bald spot.  We are working on lots of tummy time to ensure her little head stays nice and round AND then hopefully her hair will start filling in.  I recently bought her a Bumbo Chair and am so excited for her to start using it.  We are still working on neck strength but we are almost there.  Once she can hold her little head up; in the Bumbo Chair she will go for lots of fun!!!

Two Months of Reagan Marie

SLEEP: Awww the very elusive and deeply coveted “full nights sleep.”  It no longer exists. I’ve reconciled with that demon and yet things are getting better for us. Much much better. Reagan has really responded to the sleep training we started doing with her and it has been a beautiful transition for all of us.  She is still a light sleeper during the daytime often dozing in and out when we play and eat. She does take two solid naps everyday; one in the morning and one in the afternoon. These have been an absolute blessing for me. For nighttime, we are down to waking up only twice a night and Jeffrey and I alternate shifts.  At 5 weeks we started doing a couple of things differently that I believe have contributed to her “better” sleep situation…

#1 – We gave up trying to get Reagan on a sleep schedule. I heard a great piece of advice shortly after she was born; “sleep begets sleeps” especially when it comes to babies.  This could not be more true for my little girl. In other words, the more she sleeps in general, the better and longer she will sleep throughout the day and night. Music to a new mom’s ears.  A sleeping baby is a wonderful thing.  I can breathe and take a step back to focus on other things for 20 to 30 minutes.  Once I stopped trying to get her on a schedule with controlled sleep and awake periods, she MAGICAL turned a corner and started sleeping great at night.  Basically, once I let her sleep whenever she wanted during the day she slept better and more often which was wonderful for ME and for HER.  She was finally getting the rest she needed AND I was getting the daytime “mommy” breaks I needed.

#2 – We implemented a bedtime routine. The first night we did a bedtime routine little miss slept almost 5 straight hours. We were SHOCKED!! The second night she slept 4 straight hours. Every night since we have hit anywhere from 4-6 hours. We do a Bath, Book, Bottle, Bed, and of course lots of Hugs & Kisses!!!! She goes to bed at 7:30pm every night and we put her down sleepy but still awake. We want her to be able to “self soothe” and learn to fall asleep on her own.  I love to hold and cuddle her and would do that FOREVER in a heartbeat…BUT I know better as a parent and want her to grow in her independence.  As a BONUS this opens up our evenings and Mommy and Daddy get some time to relax and have dinner together!!!! Every week that passes she is sleeping a little longer for this first stretch of the night.  I’m hoping that eventually this will just transition into the whole night.  I think we are on the right track when it comes to sleep. Fingers Crossed.

#3 – We transitioned her to her CRIB. This was a tough one for me but we have all been better off for it.  I really loved the newborn phase and having my teeny tiny little baby two feet from me throughout the night was incredibly reassuring.  But once we started putting her down in her crib everything shifted and we haven’t looked back. We use the baby monitor so I can hear when she does wake and our model has a video component which is great. We can just leave her alone if she is lightly stirring and then she puts herself back to sleep. On a Mommy note…I am sleeping again at night, like actually SLEEPING…it is amazing! I really wasn’t prepared for the sleep deprivation and moving her out of our room has been the best change. We all sleep better. I used to wake up at every single sound she made and would literally JUMP out of bed in 3 seconds to be at her side. Now I don’t get up unless she is really crying and needs something from us. She is gaining independence and I get a better nights sleep. It seems like a WIN WIN to me. 🙂

SCHEDULE: Her schedule seems to evolve and change in spurts. Something shifts, Mommy and Daddy adapt, and everyone is better off for the change.  Patience has been a huge component and we are doing our best to not feel frustrated when it seems like we are going backwards. Everyday is a fresh start and a new chance to see what she can do!

Two Months of Reagan Marie

FEEDINGS: Our attack plan on feeding hasn’t really changed much. I am still pumping three times a day to keep my milk supply up and she is taking a mix of breast milk and formula via a bottle.  Once we switched her formula to the Enfamil Gentlease everything about the feeding process suddenly became so much easier and she was a much happier baby. On average she is taking 2oz. of breastmilk mixed with 2oz. of formula every 2.5 to 3 hours, give or take a feeding or extra hour here and there.  She goes a little longer between feedings at night and we’ve been giving her an extra ounce of formula at bedtime to really fill her up. So far our strategy seems to be working so we are going to keep rolling with it.

Two Months of Reagan Marie

MILESTONES & PLAY: The biggest milestone that we’ve hit in month 2 is her new desire to Smile. Her little smile lights up the whole room and you can tell she is giving it everything she’s got.  She has really started to respond to us when we talk to her. She gets very attentive and smiles and coos.  She is trying so hard to talk back to us in her little baby gibberish language. It is the sweetest thing.  She is much more interested in us talking to her then in toys or games at this point. I would love to continue to stimulate her development without TV or modern methods for as long as possible.  Really, just getting down on the floor with her and talking, laughing, and playing is the most wonderful part of our day together. She can recognize her mommy and daddy which makes my heart SOOOOO HAPPY!!! Having my child start to reciprocate LOVE is the most heartfelt thing i’ve ever experienced next to the LOVE I receive from my husband.  We have a little family and it is so wonderful.

We continue to walk almost daily with the golden puppies and I recently started putting her seat cover down so she can experience the outdoors a bit more.  The last few weeks have been so beautiful and sunny in the Pacific Northwest and I love taking her outdoors to experience everything.  I talk to her while we walk, telling her all about the houses and parks in our neighborhood.  She is beginning to look around more and seems curious about things other than just our faces that are right in front of her.

Her dexterity is getting better, she has rolled over a few times, and she is learning to grasp objects. Also, I try and expose her to all kinds of textures and new items.  I love that her little brain is growing like crazy at this age and want to take full advantage! With exposure to new sensations, sights, and sounds her brain is laying the pathways for learning and synapse growth. So bring on PLAYTIME!!!!

Happy Two Months my sweet Reagan Marie! We love you so much!!!

Happy Monday Friends and thanks for reading!

xo xo,

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One Month of Reagan Marie

Our little Reagan Marie is officially one-month-old. I simply cannot believe how seamlessly she has entered our world and our hearts.  I feel like she has been a part of our family forever and yet it seems like we just brought her home from the hospital. General confusion and fuzziness seem to be a way of life these days, probably due to the lack of shut eye and the fact that a good nights sleep no longer exists. I am currently living on iced coffee, LOVE, and lots of help from my hubby. We are just so completely in LOVE with this little girl. Here is a snapshot of our sweet one-month-old baby girl.

One Month of Reagan Marie

PEDIATRICIAN CHECK-UP & GROWTH:  Baby Reagan went in earlier this month for her 1-month pediatrician checkup and i’m excited to report that she is doing fantastic.  Baby girl looks completely perfect and wonderful. She is still a tiny little thing weighing in at only 8lbs. 2oz. but considering she was 6lbs. 3oz. when we left the hospital, we were simply thrilled with her weight gain.  She is a strong eater and is hitting the oz.-a-day goal like a champ.  She was 19″ at birth and 20″ at her 1-month appointment.  She is a petite little thing, but given that i’m a whopping 5’2″ we weren’t expecting a future WNBA star by any means.  She lost her cord stump at 2.5 weeks and is looking like she might have an outtie for a belly button.  Her little stump began smelling super rank towards the end and was a bit oozy, so our pediatrician used some silver nitrate on it at her 2-week checkup. By her 1-month appt. she had a normal looking little bellybutton that is cuter than ever. I love giving her belly kisses and she just goes bananas. I can tell she is ready to start smiling and giggling any day now.  She is growing and changing by the second and my heart is having a hard time handling it.

EYE COLOR, HAIR, & THE SWEETEST BABY ROLLS: I love her newly acquired baby rolls and those sweet cheeks are getting rounder by the day…just like her momma. She currently has DARK blue-gray eyes and is a fair skinned little angel, again like her momma, and is growing the funniest little patches of strawberry blonde hair.  We joked when she was born that she looked just like me, its the round face that does it, but I think she will get darker thicker hair as she grows from a newborn.  My natural color is strawberry blonde and I was carrot orange as a little kid.  Her hair is so fine and quite a bit darker than mine.  But when she is in the sunlight the “red” really comes out.  Jeffrey and I are both guessing a lighter auburn color will be the final result and she will most likely get darker as she gets older.

One Month of Reagan Marie

SLEEP:  We are working on getting her to sleep a little longer between feedings.  Since birth she has been waking consistently every 2-3 hours to eat.  At three and a half weeks she had a few nights where she slept 4 hours in a row and we were down to one night feeding.  This was glorious but she quickly went back to her 2-3 hour eating schedule a few days later.  Most days she is such a consistent sleeper and a great napper.  She sleeps hard at night and is a light sleeper during the day. She doesn’t “cat nap” which is great but really likes to be held while snoozing.  When we were in the hospital during the early days we got the best piece of advice ever from a night nurse.  We only swaddle her at night, from 8pm to 8am.  This has been fantastic for day/night confusion and as soon as daddy swaddles her up tight, she is out. Our goal for month two is to try and get her to sleep in 4 hour stretches at night. She currently goes around 3-3.5 hours at night which means we are getting closer. My personal “sleep” goal is to stop sleep stalking her and maybe catch some shut eye myself. She is always making little grunting sounds, whimpers, and a hilarious horse neghing sound that I just can’t get enough of.  I could stare at her and watch her all flipping day. I’m officially an obsessed mommy.

SCHEDULE: We have tried to get her on a schedule as best we can. She still runs the show but we have noticed some patterns in her day and we tweak and make adjustments as best we can.  Jeffrey does the early morning feeding around 5:30am to 6am and then she goes back to sleep for a short period.  She usually wakes up and starts her day around 7:30am to 8am. Jeff brings her into our bedroom and we do morning snuggles in bed.  She is ALWAYS super awake and alert in the morning and we play and read and cuddle until she falls asleep or its time to eat again.  She eats around 9am and then usually drifts off to sleep for a nap until 11am.  I recently started doing PureBarre, the most amazing workout for a postpartum mommy body, and head out for class around 11:30am. She stays with daddy while i’m working out. I try and feed her, change her, and put her down for another nap before I leave for class.  She sometimes stays in her crib and dad watches her with the baby monitor OR she hangs out with him in his office and helps him “work.” Our afternoons are really up in the air these days.  I love it if we can get out of the house at least once of twice even if its just for a quick walk around the block or a trip to the grocery store. I keep our afternoons open for any activities, appointments, or necessary down time either of us might require. She has one more super awake period in the late afternoon/early evening and we play and do lots of tummy time. She gets a bath around 7pm every night with daddy. We feed her around 7:30pm and then she gets burped and swaddled by 8pm. She sleeps in her MamaRoo or bouncer for 2-3 hours while we make dinner, relax, or catch up on work. She eats again around 10pm to 10:30pm and then we go to bed.  Sometimes I go to bed and she stays with daddy but we would really like to start transitioning her to her crib. Our month two goal is to work on some “sleep training.”  This will be beneficial now but also later when she enters the early toddler years. Everything I keep reading stresses establishing “good habits” as BEST you can and as EARLY as you can.  Obviously I know my newborn isn’t going to understand what we are doing, but the routines we establish now will hopefully make things easier for all of us in the future.

One Month of Reagan Marie

FEEDINGS: And then there is breastfeeding. I think this might be the toughest topic to talk about for me because there are so many expectations and “Rights vs Wrongs” when it comes to nursing your wee baby. I fully respect the rights of any mother to make whatever decision is best for HER and her BABY! As moms we need to support and lift each other up, not criticize and judge.

Let me start by saying Breastfeeding is REALLY HARD, at least it was for me. Reagan and I started off doing great and she had a fantastic latch. My milk came in about a week or so after giving birth and we met with a lactation consultant prior to leaving the hospital.  I wanted to ensure that we got off on the right foot when it came to breastfeeding.  Baby girl was in fact such a STRONG eater that my poor “tatas” got absolutely torn to shreds.  Reagan was unintentionally ingesting some blood from my breastmilk which caused her to vomit up blood on occasion. We were struggling and I was hurting…BAD.  We met with another lactation consultant who advised me to just keep nursing.  My girls would heal up in a few days and I could pump in the mean time to keep my supply up.  I cried on the daily because I was in so much pain. And my girls DID NOT HEAL up.  Continuing to nurse made it so much worse.  Our pediatrician informed us that Reagan had an incredibly strong tongue thrust for a newborn which is why I was struggling so much with healing.  I was still dead set on breastfeeding as much as possible OR at the very least ensuring she was getting my breastmilk. Our pediatrician is so amazing.  She actually purchased her wedding gown from me a few years back and we really trust her completely.  She advised us to start by nursing for 10 minutes on each breast, if I was feeling up to it, followed by 2oz. of formula to help get her weight up. As soon as we introduced the formula she was a completely different baby.  Extremely happy, content, and a good sleeper again.  This new plan allowed me to heal up and I was able to continue pumping.  She was getting a mix of breastmilk and formula which brought her weight up and she had exceeded her birth weight by her two week appointment.  Breastfeeding continued to hurt and gradually over a few weeks I was down to 2-3 nursing sessions a day and pumping the rest of the time.  We were able to get off the formula completely and she was getting only my milk. I introduced a nipple shield which completely changed the breastfeeding game.  I actually started enjoying it and it no longer hurt to feed my sweet girl.  I was already in such a good rhythm with pumping that I continued to feed her in the mornings and pump the rest of the day.  I was pumping every 2-3 hours right along with her feeding schedule. I think we never really got off on the right foot with breastfeeding and as a result it just wasn’t clicking for us.  She was thriving off of my pumped milk, had no nipple/bottle confusion, and was taking a pacifier like a champ.  Whatever we were doing seemed to be working…FOR US.  We had to adapt and go with the flow.  I had to adjust my views on exclusively breastfeeding and be open to other means of feeding her.  I actually don’t mind pumping now and my supply is up enough that I am now pumping around 4-6 times a day only.  At our 1-month appointment our pediatrician advised us to reintroduce a little formula because it will help her sleep longer between feedings.  I know some individuals are completely against this and thats OK. We had to dig down deep, ignore the ridicule and endless commentary, and make the right decision for US and our girl.  She now gets 2oz. of breastmilk mixed with 1oz. of Gentlease Enfamil Formula every 2-3 hours. She goes a little longer at night, at least every 3 hours since introducing formula and is now getting the sleep she needs. Sometimes she even goes 4 hours and those nights are glorious.

Breastfeeding vs. Pumping, Pumping vs. Formula, Nipple Shield vs. No Nipple Shield…”F” it all. My best advise for a new mom is to do what feels right for YOU. We got so much “advice” in the early days and were honestly trying to do what everyone recommended, that it actually set us back with the feeding situation.  I kept having “mommy instincts” those first few weeks and I wish I had listened more to my gut and less to everyone else.  But there are so many adjustments and lessons taking place in the early days that you sorta have to just “experience it” and figure it all out as you go.  I recall well intentioned moms advising me and telling me what it would be like, but it is SO DIFFERENT from what they described.  Its not even something you can really explain, you have to experience it for yourself…same goes for labor and delivery. I thought I knew what I was in for…I was very very wrong.

One Month of Reagan Marie

MILESTONES, PLAY, & DEVELOPMENT: Oh sweet baby girl, you’ve changed and hit so many milestones already. My mind is officially blown at what your already able to do compared to when you first arrived.

Reagan is an incredibly sweet baby.  Her little personality is slowly beginning to develop and I am just obsessed. She has been extremely alert since the moment she was born.  When awake, her eyes are always huge and open, taking in her tiny world. She loves making eye contact with whomever is in front of her.  She especially likes staring at her Daddy for long periods of time.  I think its that his beard is very dark and she is drawn to the contrast. Well that and the fact that its her Daddy of course!!! She has become a pro at lifting and turning her tiny head.  We have been doing as much tummy time as her schedule allows. Most of the time I prop her up on the Boppy for support but sometimes if she is wide awake we’ll lay on the floor together and stare at the sights around us.  I love playing Disney songs for her on Pandora and we play and talk and make faces at one another.  She has learned to respond to our voices and perks up when we talk to her. I love placing objects in front of her and we are working with her to track the objects with her eyes. We do baby massage and play peek-a-boo for brain stimulation.  And sometimes the best thing for her is to just lay there, very calm, and she gradually moves her eyes around whatever room she is in absorbing all the sights and sounds.  We have made sure to have the animals around Reagan constantly since Day One. We wanted everyone to get used to each other from the start and now we don’t think twice about the dogs or cats being around her.  They are very gentle with her and are actually quite protective of our newest family member.  I’m continually researching and finding new ways to play and interact with Miss Reagan.  We are looking forward to her becoming more interactive and learning about her world right before our eyes.

LOVES & HATES: There are so many things that I can think of that she totally loves and very few that I would say she “hates.”  She is such a good baby in that she just “takes” whatever we dish out.  As parents in the early stages of having a newborn we had to make a conscious decision to stay as positive as possible. Survival mode at its finest friends. Because of this, I can’t think of a single thing that I would interpret as her “disliking or hating.” We tend to focus on only the good because we need the positivity and upbeat attitude to get through the day, but more importantly to survive the night feedings. Some of her current favorites are…tummy time, bath time with Daddy, staring out the windows, checking out bright lights, being held and cuddled, receiving kisses from our girl dogs, and bouncing and playing with Daddy!

Happy One Month Baby Girl!!!!!

We love you so much that our hearts might burst with JOY!!!!

– Mommy & Daddy