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ONE Month of Jackson James

Our little dude Jackson is officially one-month-old. Summer has arrived and we are just so dang busy with our sweet children.  Reagan is officially on a toddler tear of wanting to do a new activity every five minutes and Jackson wants to eat ALL THE TIME!!! But you know what they say, “Hands FULL, Hearts FULL,” and we definitely have our hands full.

I am so excited to do monthly pics of our little man. Watching him grow, change, and capturing each little smile and baby roll is just AMAZING!!!! It was a lot of work to capture 12 months worth of photos of Miss Reagan, but now I look back on all the tiny changes and am simply blown away by how much she has grown. I’m so thankful I took the time to do them.  Again, time is passing much too quickly and I want to enjoy these little moments and capture who our little dude is in this moment!!!

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PEDIATRICIAN CHECK UP & GROWTH: The little dude went in for his one month check-up and we were just blown away at the weight this man is putting on. He came into this world starving and literally hasn’t stopped eating since.  He is almost a whole pound and a half bigger then Miss Reagan Marie was at this age. He currently weighs 9lbs. 6oz. and is 21in. long.  Our pediatrician was very pleased with his progress.  Its been so nice to feel comfortable breastfeeding this time around and to not stress over being able to produce enough milk for him. We nurse when we want to, I’m pumping 3-4 times a day, and then we supplement with formula if we need to.  With Reagan I was so worried and freaked out about being able to breastfeed.  I never could tell if I was making enough milk and then there was the PAIN. Breastfeeding Reagan hurt like a “B.” Social media and “the PERFECT Mommas” out there put so much pressure on new moms to breastfeed exclusively.  I stressed and stressed over doing the best thing for her at the time.  Now, I just let it go and do what is best for me and  the little man on whatever particular day we are trying to get through. He is gaining plenty of weight and we are both HAPPY!

EYE COLOR, HAIR LOSS, & GOOFY FACES:  I see so much of Reagan in him and yet they are both so different.  Sometimes he’ll make a face or turn his head a certain way and I swear I’m looking at my baby Reagan.  His sweet face and soft eyes just melt my heart.  He definitely has Reagan’s nose but the face shape and eyes are a little different.  Reagan is very round, like her Mommy, and our little dude is long and lean with an angular face like his Daddy. I have big round eyes and when he is nice and awake, doing tummy time, or playing he’ll open his eyes nice and big as well.  They are so bright and beautiful and I can just see him working on things and trying to make out different dark or light shapes.  I absolutely ADORE his awake face and can see so much life in his bright eyes. They are super dark blue and haven’t really changed much since birth.  We are so excited to see if they stay blue like his sister, or go hazel or green like his parents.

He came into this world with the softest dark newborn hair that had a slight auburn tint.  I remember sitting in the hospital stroking his tiny head and just loving the soft feel of his hair. When i’m flipping through his newborn photos, which can be seen HERE, I can see so much RED in his hair.  Right around three weeks he started losing all his newborn hair.  Reagan came out of the womb bald and stayed that way until almost her first birthday. I had no idea what to expect and after doing a little Mommy research, aka, I googled newborn hair loss, I learned this is completely normal.  As you can see in his monthly photos, he looks like a typical bald newborn baby. But he has kept all his hair in the back.  So weird.  I think he may have a mild case of cradle cap which is also extremely common in newborn babies.  I first noticed the faintest dryness on his scalp and that was coupled with the hair loss.  Hair will always grow back so I’m not super worried.  We’ll check in with our Pediatrician at his two month appointment and until then I’m not going to stress about it. He is still the cutest and sweetest little dude I’ve ever seen. Such a handsome boy.

He has a very expressive face and the sweetest eyes. He purses his lips, opens his eyes big and wide, and extends his neck out. It is by far my favorite expression of his so far and we are calling it his signature pose. He has given me a few small smiles and my all time favorite, sleepy newborn dream giggles.  Reagan used to do it as well and I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT.

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SLEEP: On night one Jeffrey and I were sitting in the hospital counting our blessings on the birth of our new baby boy, but secretly we were thinking WE TOTALLY SCORED. Jackson was sleeping in five hour stretches consistently and we simply couldn’t believe it. We couldn’t get over how awesome and chill he was. The first three days of his life we slept so good and I almost felt fully rested and recharged after giving birth.  Well, reality hit us both pretty quickly and he soon settled into a steady 3-4 hour pattern of eating and sleeping.  He was still an extremely content, peaceful, and easy baby but was definitely waking up on a normal schedule now. Other then a handful of days, mostly triggered by us breaking his routine, he has stuck to the same nighttime feeding and sleeping schedule.

We learned our lesson with Reagan and only swaddle him up tight when its bedtime.  He gets a bath, fresh jammies and a hat, and a fresh swaddle blanket every evening right after we put Reagan down at 7pm.  He eats, sometimes we nurse and sometimes he gets a bottle, and then after some burping and LOTS of rocking he’ll settle into his big sleep stretch for the night. With Reagan we were waking up almost every 2 to 3 hours and would switch the night shift feedings. Jeffrey would stay up late and do a late shift and then I would wake up in the wee hours of the morning and do the remaining nighttime feedings.  He goes down around 8pm and will pretty consistently sleep until 1:30am or 2am.  If we are off schedule then he’ll wake up around midnight. He has a rough patch every morning from 4am to 5am and is usually working on gas.  He is still asleep but is so noisy and loud grunting and farting every few minutes.  Such a little BOY!!!! It always wakes me up and then after 5am he is all good again and will stay asleep until 7am.  Jeffrey does the 1am to 2am night feeding and I am up at 4am everyday listening to him work on his gassy tummy or rocking him, burping him, or trying my darnedest to help him get comfortable and back to sleep. Sometimes I try and go back to sleep or I just stay awake and PUMP. Always always pumping.  It never ends.

We are still working on a daytime napping routine and haven’t found our grove yet.  I keep trying to remind myself that he is still brand new and I need to lower my expectations on getting him to nap consistently.  I do feel confident that we are slowly falling into a routine and I know we will get there eventually. I literally winged it with Reagan and she is an absolute PRO at sleeping through the night and going down for naps. She never makes a fuss and she is almost always on cue for when naptime or bedtime rolls around. We used the “cry it out” method, after a few months with Reagan and she started sleeping and napping pretty quickly. We found that keeping them on a consistent schedule, helping them learn to self soothe, and keeping their little bellies full are the keys to getting them to sleep and nap.

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SCHEDULE:  I don’t really have a set schedule at the moment. I really wanted to give myself some leeway in the early days and working on staying focused on being happy, loving the babies, and sleeping as much as possible.  I also LOVE having a clean house and cleaning is a major stress reducer for me, so I’m making this a priority as well.  Other then that, we are shooting for a few daily activities for Reagan, lots of tummy time for Jackson, maybe a walk for mommy and the dogs #byebyebabyweight, and naps sprinkled in. This is the base schedule that we fell into for month one. We have lots of Summer activities coming up so I know this schedule won’t last for long. But for now, this is what we are rocking.

4:00AM to 6:00AM – Wake up with Jackson. His morning is really unpredictable and he will wake up anytime during this window. Reagan is still sleeping at this point and my main goal is to get the little dude nice and content before she wakes up and starts going a million miles an hour.  I feed the baby, change his diaper, we cuddle, and then I pump to get my supply up.  This has really paid off big time and my supply is picking up. As long as I can get this first morning pump out of the way then I don’t feel quite so stressed in the morning.

7:30AM – Reagan wakes up. I get Jackson settled in the bassinet or a boppy on the floor and then go get little Miss out of her crib in the spare bedroom.  Eventually we will have the kids bunk together, but for now we added a second crib in another bedroom for her to sleep and nap in.  This allows us to feed the little dude at night without waking each other up.  Jackson still sleeps next to our bed in the bassinet and I’m hoping to get him transitioned into his crib soon.

8:00AM to 9:30AM – Coffee, breakfast, and morning playtime for Reagan.  Reagan eats breakfast while I make coffee in the morning. Jackson is such a little cat napper and is still really sleepy all the time. I’m taking full advantage and letting him sleep whenever he wants.  Month two we are really going to try and get him napping on a regular schedule. Reagan loves eggs and goofs off in her high chair while I sip my coffee.  The weather outside has been beautiful but I am struggling with getting outside with both kids. We are slowly finding our grounding and venturing outside.  We got a double stroller which is AMAZING! Now I can walk with both the babies. Its been in the high 80’s to 90’s where we live so wearing Jackson in my wrap hasn’t been an option. Jeffrey will sometimes walk with us in the evening after Crossfit. I can push Jackson in the stroller and he wears Reagan in a hiking backpack. He says its like working out with a 20lb. weight vest so it totally counts as extra cardio. We only do evening walks sometimes because bedtime and dinner get pushed back and we ALL need to be hitting the hay early these days.

10:00AM – Reagan goes down for her first nap of the day.  Jackson is either awake, eating, or sleeping! Sometimes I can sneak in a  quick workout or a shower during this time. Sometimes I just sit in peace and quiet and mentally get my bearings. I love to use this time to make another coffee, work on a blog post, checkout social media, and basically just pretend like I’m not bound by two tiny humans.

11:30AM – Reagan will usually sleep for an hour to an hour and a half. When she wakes up, if I haven’t showered already, we’ll take a quick shower and read books and play some more. Finding activities to keep her busy these days is getting tricky. Normally we would go outside and play and just goof off but having a newborn is a complete game changer. We are slowly baby proofing and toddler proofing our backyard and I am getting more and more comfortable taking Jackson outside. I worry about the heat, about Reagan falling or eating something in the backyard, does she have sunscreen on, Jackson is crying in the background because he is hungry, and now my boobs are leaking because he is crying. So…we just give up on going outside altogether and shoot for having some cheddar bunnies and feeding the baby.  Then we sit on the floor in the living room and sing the “Itsy Bitsy Spider” for the 826th time until its time to eat lunch.

12:30AM to 1:00PM – LUNCH!!! YAY!!! We are officially halfway through the day and its almost nap time again.  I’ve been up since 4am and if only one of the kids are crying at this point…then its a good day!!! Reagan gets corralled into her high chair and Jackson does tummy time on a blanket in the kitchen while a figure out something for lunch.  These days I’m just eating whatever I can get my hands on and that is usually whatever Reagan is eating.  We make it work. If I stock the fridge with only healthy fresh foods then we both end up eating healthy. She is also getting more teeth so our options are slowly expanding. Jackson is just along for the ride.

2:00PM to 2:30PM – Reagan goes down for her second nap of the day and Jackson and I take a nap as well. He loves to sleep on my chest and this is one of my absolute favorite parts of the day.  I love snuggling with this tiny newborn baby and if I didn’t have a toddler running around he might be glued to my chest all day long!!!! I already miss his tiny newborn little self and feeling him close and snuggly reminds me that he is still my sweet baby boy.  I know soon enough he’ll be running around and maybe even out pacing Reagan. I’m literally clinging to every moment I can get with him. I want him to feel important and loved just like Miss Reagan.

4:30PM – Reagan wakes up from her nap and that means Jackson and I must get up too. We play a little more and then start prepping dinner while Daddy is at CrossFit. I’ve been trying to keep Jackson awake from this point until his bedtime to ensure he is nice and tired.  Sometimes he takes a mini nap but mostly we practice tummy time, look at black and white art cards, and track objects while Reagan runs around yelling at the top of her lungs.

5:30PM – Daddy is HOME!!! Yay. This means I finally have backup and someone to wrangle Reagan or feed Jackson. Sometimes we go on a long family walk and then come home and have dinner. Jeffrey and I are usually running on fumes by this point and Jackson is getting hungry. Reagan is usually throwing food on the floor yelling “DDDOOOGGG” at the top of her lungs.  She thinks its just hilarious that the dogs come running as soon as she is in her highchair with food on her plate.  Quite the coincidence.

7:00PM – Bathtime for both the kids. Jeffrey gives Reagan a bath and then I give one to Jackson.  He hated bathtime at first but now he loves it.  He is always kicking and moving his little arms.  His eyes are nice and big taking in all the sensations and stimulation.  We alternate with just water baths and washing baths were we use the basic Johnson’s baby wash from the hospital.  His skin is so delicate that we don’t need to wash him every night.  We want to establish a routine and get him used to the idea that bathtime is always followed by bedtime. We read books and get fresh jammies. Reagan goes down and then we feed Jackson and swaddle him up tight. He fights going to sleep almost every night but eventually falls conks out.

12:30AM – 2:00AM – Every night is a little different and we are still working on getting him on a consistent night schedule.  He usually wakes up betweens 1AM and 2AM but will occasional wake early around midnight. Jeffrey wakes up for this first night feeding.  He usually takes about 5oz. to 6oz. of either pumped milk or formula, gets burped by Daddy followed by a fresh diaper. Then we re-swaddle the little dude and he will fall back asleep within 15 minutes or so. He’ll sometimes fight going back to sleep but after a few toots he is out again.

That takes us full circle back to the 4am mark were he is either awake and ready to start his day or we eat again and then go back to sleep for a little longer.  Tough for me to say which I prefer. I love when he goes back to sleep until 7am or so, the extra sleep is glorious. But I love the feeling of being up with him when the rest of the house is so peaceful and quiet. We cuddle, watch the news, and sip coffee. I really feel like I get a head start on my days when we are up early, but then I pay for it in the afternoons when exhaustion hits hard.

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FEEDINGS: This kid LOVE to eat. He is literally eating all the time as evident by his weight gain.  I feel like I’m barely making enough milk for him.  We have no issues supplementing with formula if I can’t keep up with him. I started doing whats called “power pumping” once a day.  After he is nice and full I pump for as long as I can until milk stops flowing.  Then I rest for 10 minutes, pump for 10 minutes, rest for 10 minutes, and then pump again for 10 minutes.  After about 3 days of doing this routine once a day my supply picked up by about 10 ounces.  I highly recommend it along with drinking about a gallon of water each day. He is still out eating my production but at least we are giving it everything we’ve got. In the early newborn days we were exclusively breastfeeding, love that yummy golden colostrum, and then once my milk came in I started pumping to get ahead of my supply.  He quickly became ravenous and now we are just rolling with whatever works. I struggled making enough milk with Reagan as well and quickly gave up on breastfeeding and pumping altogether.  My supply is steady enough to really get him some good breastmilk and then we bottle feed him formula the rest of the time.

MILESTONES, PERSONALITY, & SIBLING LOVE: He has a very calm demeanor like his Daddy. His favorite activity is sleeping on Mommy’s chest, he loves to eat, and when he isn’t swaddled he loves to nap with his arms up by his head.  He is also a big fan of falling asleep during tummy time, hates the boppy so far, loves to look from side to side and is always sneezing.  Dang pollen in the air. We are still learning who he is and what his little personality will be.  He was calm and steady in the womb, wasn’t a big kicker, and always had a low heartbeat. He has been that way since he was born as well. He loves to just hang out with us and hates being left alone in a room.  He is happiest while being held and immedieyly stops crying once he is picked up. He just wants to be a part of the family and loves to be included in whatever we are doing.

We’ve had lots of outdoor time, walks, and he does pretty good in the carseat. He doesn’t seem to know Reagan yet but eventually I’m sure she will be crazy entertainment for him. He loves his paci and will fall asleep almost immediately once swaddled. He is a loud sleeper always cooing, grunting, farting, and doing his newborn giggles.  I’m such a light sleeper that I hear everything. It really is time to transition him to his crib.

I’m loving my Letter Board from Amazon and am so excited to use it for all his monthly photos and updates.  I also love that I can use it in our house for holidays and events etc.  I wanted to do something different for him and all the Pinterest ideas seemed overdone these days.  I can’t wait to make a big photo book with his and Reagan’s monthly pics.  It will be so cute.

Happy ONE MONTH little dude!! You are our precious baby boy and we love you so very very much!

xo xo,

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Read about Reagan’s first month and to see her monthly photos click here… “One Month of Reagan Marie.”

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Categories MOTHERHOODNEWBORN

Jackson’s Newborn Photos

Motherhood in a nutshell seems to be watching our children grow up way to fast and then secretly crying in our bedrooms at night while looking back at all the itty bitty baby photos of them.  We are already almost through the newborn stage and I am shocked at how big my sweet baby boy is.  As I stated in my previous post, pregnancy and the early days of having a newborn seem like a lifetime ago and we are only five weeks into our new life with Jackson James. I am so thankful that we took the time to have newborn photos done with Jackson and Reagan when he was just 13 day old.

It is so easy to get lost in all the toddler chaos, Summer fun, sleepless nights, endless bottle washing, pumping, and nursing. I find so much JOY in looking back at these photos and remembering the sweetness and love that I have for these two tiny humans! The days feel like they are going by ten times faster then when Reagan was a newborn. I find myself clinging to the little moments with him, wanting to snuggle and just love on him for hours. This of course is only possible during Reagan’s naps and then I officially get NOTHING done every single day. Mommy guilt over who is getting more attention, affection, and one-on-one time is in full swing and I cry on the daily.  I am in a constant emotional battle between deciding to play with Reagan, snuggle Jackson, love on the dogs, clean the house, stay caught up on laundry, or simply breathe. God forbid I should take a NAP for five minutes.  I remembering feeling bored and like a total mom-zombie with Reagan and now I blink and a whole day with both of them has passed before I know it.

The baby days are numbered. Reagan has already changed so much, as well as Jackson, and I know its only a matter of time before they don’t look anything like these photos. Time is going by much too quickly already. I love these little babies with my whole heart. Seeing their sweet expressions and capturing their personalities in this moment, thats what its all about friends!

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Jackson James, you are the bees knees little boy. Your momma loves you to pieces and you will always be my sweet special little guy! We all love you and you have completed our family for sure! Biggest THANK YOU to Jenn from Jenn Elliott Photography for capturing my beautiful babies! She is beyond amazing and we just love her.  She is always up for taking on new clients so shoot her a message if your interested in setting up a session with her.  We simply can’t recommend her enough!!!

Click HERE to check out Reagan Marie’s newborn photos as well.

 Navy Newborn Stretch Wrap // Charcoal Newborn Stretch Wrap // White Lace Top discontinued (similar HERE)

xo xo,

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Categories BABYMOTHERHOODNEWBORN

3 Weeks of Jackson James!

2 weeks of Jackson James

Our sweet little man is already three weeks old and we are cruising into a new routine.  The days and weeks are starting to run together but overall we are adjusting really well and are beyond in love with these two tiny humans.  I am so in love with the photo above which was taken on Memorial Day 2017. We had a small celebration at our house to welcome our little man home. These are my people and they represent everything I love about our family and this beautiful life.  Don’t get me wrong…its bat shit crazy at times and chaotic beyond words. But DANG, there is so much JOY and LOVE in the air that we might drown from happiness.  Babies are the biggest blessing in the whole world.

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Little Jackson is doing so GOOD. We just went in for his two week checkup and he has already exceeded his birth weight by a whole pound. He was born over Memorial Day weekend and only lost 1 oz. while we were in the hospital.  He dropped a little more weight in the week after his birth but my milk came in quickly and we rebounded.  We went back to the hospital for his 2nd PKU test and he passed his Bilirubin screening, code for jaundice check, with flying colors.  It was so crazy to be back at the hospital so quickly after giving birth to him. Major de-javu for both his birth and Reagan’s birth.  On a completely random note, we were actually in the exact same post-birth room for both children.  I have such special memories of the first few hours with both my children in that hospital room.

Nursing is going extremely well for us, which is a total shock after my experience with Reagan. We had a few minor road blocks with early breastfeeding pain and bleeding but overall Jackson has an awesome latch and we are crushing it.  He has a small tongue tie issue which will resolve itself over time according to our pediatrician. He is eating every 3 hours consistently now and slept like a rock the whole first week of his life.  We were only waking up once a night or so and getting so much sleep in those early days.  But we have settled into a normal routine and I am so thankful for the 3 hour chunks that we do get.  I am pumping all day long in addition to breastfeeding to build up my milk supply.  This is wonderful in that Jeffrey can feed the little man for one of the night feedings and I can do the second night feeding.  Reagan is an early riser so we are up between 6am and 7am every morning to kick off our day regardless.  No rest for the RAD!

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We had my husband’s family in town and my parents who live here the weekend I gave birth and a few days prior.  It was so amazing and helpful to be surrounded by our loved ones during such a special time. They were all able to help watch Miss Reagan and give me a break the first few days home from the hospital. I was able to ease into having moments alone with both the kids. We started with an hour or so by myself, a few hours here and there, half the day, and then almost the whole day which was a godsend. The thought of having both the children by myself was so overwhelming at first.  I literally cried on more than one occasion at just the thought of it.  But once Jackson was here, I was able to ease into it and feel confident that it was completely doable. Now we are in such a strong routine that it feels like our life has always been on autopilot with our two little loves.

Reagan is such a little ham and is always on the go. She is literally non-stop!!! She keeps me on my toes for sure and keeping her entertained and active is my main goal.  Jackson is so easy at this point.  I don’t want to minimize the stress and exhaustion of the Newborn phase…its A LOT OF WORK. But its a different kind of work and I feel so blessed to have a healthy baby who likes to sleep and eat every 3-4 hours.  Some newborns want to eat every hour on the hour. YIKES! We went into setting up a routine with the intention of keeping Reagan’s life and schedule as seamless as possible.  This has really paid off in that she just loves the baby.  She wants to help and love on him constantly and enjoys being around him. She doesn’t act threatened or jealous and isn’t trying to compete for my attention yet. I’m sure we will hit a few speed bumps at some point, as is completely normal with children and siblings, but for now the adjustment is going great!

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Reagan is doing an amazing job as a big sister.  I had zero expectations of what she would think of the baby and how she would act around him.  She totally understands that we have a baby in the house and is so helpful for a toddler who is only 15 months old. She is always very gentle, loves to bring him pacifiers when he fusses, learned how to push the button to turn on the MamaRoo, and is very concerned about where he is and if he is ok. She loves her “Ba-by” and recently started giving him the sweetest kisses on the head. I am beyond blown away at the sweetness and love she displays towards him. I am counting my blessings for sure at her new found ability to show love and affection. We are trying our hardest to teach her to say “I love you.”

2 weeks of Jackson James

2 weeks of Jackson James

2 weeks of Jackson James

Overall my recovery has been speedy and amazing. The human body just kicks into gear and boom we had baby.  Its already like I was never even pregnant minus a few hormone induced mommy meltdowns.  I started walking 3 days after giving birth and am already down about 18 of the 26 pounds I gained from this pregnancy.  I am hoping to have our schedule dialed in enough to fit in regular workouts once I get the all clear from my doctor. So excited to have some natural endorphins and not just pregnancy hormones flowing through my body again.

I haven’t really tried to establish a schedule at all and our days are very very simple.  I’m keeping the routine basic and we only work on checking off the absolute necessities with naps sprinkled in between. We have ventured out of the house a few times but mostly we are hunkering in and just establishing a routine and getting our home base set up.  I do make a solid effort to “get out of the house” WITH THE KIDS at least once a day, even if we just take a walk around the block.  I easily go stir crazy even after a day of not leaving the house.  Mentally and emotionally I know what it takes for me to stay balanced, and if I can keep that in check it makes managing the two munchkins so much easier. My hubby works from home which is wonderful because I have help when and if I need it. We have also had family in and out of town regularly since his birth which has helped ease the transition.  At the one month mark i’m really hoping to get into a steady routine that will keep all of us thriving and not just in pure survival mode.  But this is the newborn phase and we are all adjusting to our new life as a family of FOUR + 2 golden retrievers + 3 kitty babies.

xo xo,

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Welcome to the World, Jackson James Haguewood!!!

Its official, Baby Haguewood #2 has arrived and we are delighted to welcome a perfectly healthy little BOY into our growing family!!!

Welcome to the world Jackson James Haguewood!!!!

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Jackson James was born on May 26th at 7:21pm!!! He entered the world with a LOUD scream weighing in at 7lbs. 5oz. and is 20in. long.  Friday was his official due date, June 9th, and he is already two weeks old.  As with Reagan I delivered at exactly 38 weeks and i’ve taken some time to just soak up every second of cuddles and love from both my babies and my husband.  Sometimes blogging needs to take a backseat.  We are so grateful that he is here and we are slowly settling into a new routine and a new normal with our two wonderful children. We feel so fortunate to have one of each gender and are looking forward to learning who our new little man is.

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I had another incredibly easy and quick delivery and am so grateful for this perfect baby boy. He has simply worked his way into our hearts and having him as part of the family seems the most natural thing in the world.  He was always meant to be with us.  I wasn’t sure how the transition to two children would go, but everything has been completely seamless.  Reagan joined us at the hospital shortly after he arrived and was beyond delighted with her new baby brother.  We of course loved seeing her and missed her like crazy.

She, however, was more interested in the hospital room and playing with her Grandparents. I can’t wait till he is old enough to interact and play with her in return.  Seeing my two babies side-by-side is the most magical feeling in the world. I simply don’t know what I ever did to deserve this life and the love of this family…but I am eternally grateful.

Jackson Birth post

Jackson Birth post

Jackson Birth post

At two weeks old Mr. Jackson is the calmest and most content baby i’ve personally ever met.  We got off to a wonderful start with nursing and he barely lost any weight while we waited for my milk to come in.  These first two weeks have been drastically different from our early days with Reagan.  I remember feeling major mommy blues and nursing was a huge challenge with her.  Everything about this little dude is calm and easy.  He does have the occasional fussy moment but that usually means he is a little gassy and it quickly passes.  Our first night home with the little man was crazy easy.  He only woke once to nurse and slept in five hour chunks.  I was shocked and a little worried about how sleepy and content he was. We didn’t know if something was wrong.  Turns out he is just super chill and loves to sleep and eat.  He loves cuddles and being patted on the bottom to fall asleep.  He is quite the grunter and makes the funniest newborn sounds.  I am obsessed with his long fingers and toes and we are convinced he will be tall and lean like my husband’s grandfather!  Basically he is PERFECT and we are so in love with him.

Jackson Birth post

Jackson Birth post

I will share his birth story soon and am so excited to continue blogging about my journey through motherhood and the adjustment to two children.  It has definitely been different but our home is so full of joy and love.  Seeing the HAPPINESS in my husband’s eyes at finally having a son is an indescribable feeling.  We would have loved another little girl, but having a baby boy has filled a gap in our hearts that we didn’t know existed.  He is here now and our family feels whole.  Reagan is just enamored with her baby brother and runs around the house yelling “Ba-by.”  Every time she wakes up from a nap she is calling for the baby and wants to go check on him.  She is constantly peeking into his bassinet and smiling down on him. She lights up every time she sees him and claps her hands and giggles.  I have yet to witness a single moment where she isn’t smiling around him or excited to see him.  We weren’t sure if she would even notice him, being that she is only 15 months old, but she just LOVES him.  I wasn’t expecting that and every time they are together my heart just explodes with happiness.  I can tell they are going to be extremely close siblings.  She is always gentle around him, helps me hunt for his pacifiers, and if we bottle feed him pumped milk she loves to bring us the bottle and help feed him.  She loves her “ba-ba,” code for bottle, and helps him with his.  It is so cute!!!!

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I always here stories from second time moms who say, “I didn’t know if there would be room in my heart for another child.” Or “I wasn’t sure I could love a second child the way I love my first.” I was absolutely positive that our baby would be loved beyond measure and there is no first child or second child, just children to be loved endlessly.  My heart expanded immediately when they first brought him to me and I know that love will continue to grow as we bring more children into the world.

He is so tiny and so sweet. I completely forgot how itty bitty newborns are. It was an amazing feeling to bring another sweet human into this world and my heart is so full of LOVE and GRATITUDE.  The journey is just beginning.  Raising babies into emotionally intelligent and resilient adults requires some serious Mommy kahunas.  I’ve always said that making and birthing babies is the easy part.  Molding these small humans and helping them to grow in love and strength is my true calling in motherhood, and that literally scares the crap out of me.  To do right by these beautiful little souls and be entrusted with their love is the greatest and most weighty journey I will ever undergo.  I pray for their health, wellbeing, and eternal happiness almost every second of every day.  My heart was simply made to love these children.

I will update shortly with more baby news, but my number one priority at the moment is simply getting to know our sweet baby Jackson and continuing to watch our Reagan Marie grow up!!! Thank you to everyone who has sent their love and well wishes. I promise I will get better at responding to phone calls and messages. Right now we are just loving being hunkered in as a family of four PLUS two golden retrievers and three kitty babies! We have one full house and it is just wonderful!

xo xo,

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Month TWO Newborn Favorites…aka “we’re starting to get the hang of this”

So excited to be sharing some awesome products today that made month two with our baby girl a little sweeter and a WHOLE LOT easier. Here is my run down on our month 2 favorite newborn products and all the baby stuff that I sifted through to survive the first 8 weeks with our baby girl.

I don’t know what I’d do without all the awesome suggestions I’ve received from other mommas, and then of course there is just trial by fire and learning EVERYTHING as we go.  I tried to do as much prep as possible before little Miss Reagan arrived, but there truly is no substitute for being in the moment and figuring out what you need to raise your babies!

*NOTE – I did a TON of research when it came to finding the best-quality and cheapest prices on ALL of our baby gear. I HIGHLY recommend starting a Target Baby Registry! Everything that Target and Amazon have are bomb.com and often both have the cheapest prices.  I compared them with Babies R’ Us, Diapers.com, Costco, and Walmart and was surprised/excited to learn that they really do have the best deals.

month 2 newborn favorite products

Infantino Car Seat Chimes: Pink Owl Chime    BlueBird and Elephant Chime    Yellow Giraffe Chime

Enfamil Gentlease Formula:   20oz. Reusable Tub     (4-pack)  20oz. Reusable Tub

Johnson’s Head-to-Toe Baby Wash     Boppy Noggin Nest Pillow     WubbaNub Pacifier

AngelCare Bath Support     Dr. Brown’s Bottles

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Infantino Car Seat Chimes:    I LOVE these little buggers. I happened upon them randomly one day at Target and was immediately obsessed. The bright colors and sweet chimes are absolutely perfect for catching Miss Reagan’s attention. The hubby built me a little mini baby gym, tutorial coming soon, and we dangle them from it while she sits in her Boppy and plays for hours. She gets those little arms moving and loves to play and grab them. If you follow me on INSTAGRAM then you have probably seen the sweetest little video of her playing with them. As a bonus, I love that I can easily remove them from the gym and take them on the go whenever we need them. The little Pink Owl and the Green Elephant are Reagan’s favorites.

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Enfamil Gentlease Formula:   I’ve mentioned this baby formula a few times now! But seriously, this might have truly saved me from losing my mind the first 8 weeks of Reagan’s life. We really struggled with breastfeeding and were originally given Enfamil Newborn Formula by our pediatrician. Well a few weeks later she was struggling with tummy troubles and we decided to give Gentlease a try. BABY…FORMULA…MAGIC!!! Reagan immediately took to it and now it is a huge part of our daily feeding routine. Like I’ve mentioned in earlier posts, I am still expressing and pumping breast milk and we mix it with a few ounces of this Enfamil Gentlease. The end result is one Milk Drunk Happy Baby and two completely relieved parents. She is still gassy on occasion but she no longer screams or cries from tummy pain. I am so happy that we found this. It has been an absolute godsend!

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Johnson’s Baby Wash: Baby wash seems like a pretty basic baby necessity, but I was shocked at how many different washes and shampoos are on the market today.  Its confusing as a parent to know what brands to trust and what brands are “over-the -top.” We were given Johnson’s Head-to-Toe Baby Wash by the hospital and have really loved it.  We started using bath time as a precursor to bedtime in our daily routine, and needed a baby wash that was super gentle on Miss Reagan’s sensitive skin.  Most websites will also recommended that you don’t bathe your newborn daily, but with the blessing of our pediatrician we were given the go ahead as long as the wash was gentle enough. Johnson’s Baby Wash allows us to keep Reagan “nice and clean” and as a bonus she gets “nice and tired” from playing in the bath. Bring on bedtime, aka Mommy & Daddy relaxation time!!!!

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Boppy Nest Noggin’ Support Pillow: Awwww…the dreaded flat head syndrome. Strangely this issue caused me more “mommy stress” then anything else during month two. We were officially out of the early newborn days and were feeling more and more confident in everything we were doing as parents. Then little Miss Reagan started sleeping a little longer and that meant she was on her back for longer periods of time while swaddled and sleeping. I was so terrified that she would develop a flattened head that wouldn’t correct itself with tummy time etc.

Are there any other mommas out there who stressed and worried about completely ruining your child because you weren’t able to hold/carry/wear your baby 24/7???

I truly felt like I was “damaging” my child every single time I put her down for a nap or bedtime. Enter the Nest Noggin’ Pillow. This has been a lifesaver. We tried a few different strategies prior to purchasing the pillow which included: side sleeping, rotating her head from side to side, propping her up in the Boppy to sleep and countless other things. But ultimately we got the Noggin’ Pillow and now I simply don’t stress about her having a physical deformity or requiring a shaping helmet at any point in her infancy.  She has a beautiful, perfectly shaped, round little head. 🙂

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Wubba Nub Pacifier: Love Love Love the WubbaNub Pacifier. I had initially heard mixed reviews about it but ultimately we received it as a gift and have absolutely loved having it as our dedicated car seat pacifier. If you read my Month One Newborn Favorites post, then you know how much we LOVE the Avent Soothie Pacifiers and the WubbaNub comes with one attached to the sweetest little stuffy animal.  I use this paci for the car when Reagan is fussy. While driving or riding in the passenger seat it is almost impossible to reach back and hunt for a pacifier while still being a responsible driver.  The stuffed animal on this bad boy is fantastic because it is easy to find, grab, and shove back in quickly.  The end result is a smooth and quiet car ride for everyone. Parenting WIN!!!!!

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AngelCare Bath Support: This is by far my FAVORITE item that I discovered during month two. We use the AngelCare Bath Support EVERY SINGLE DAY, and it has made bath time so enjoyable for all of us.  Reagan is so happy because just like the name implies she is fully supported and can be in the bath splashing and looking around at us instead of being awkwardly held.  Bathing an infant is tricky because they get so slippery in the water and you are left with only one free hand for washing.  I am so happy with the AngelCare because Reagan is propped up and can look around but remains safely secured in the anti-slip rubber base. The AngelCare comes in both Pink and Blue.

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Dr. Brown’s Vented Bottles:  Everyone has their own preference on baby bottles, for us, these have made a huge difference in the feeding arena.  We originally tried breastfeeding as long as possible but to keep it short and sweet, it just wasn’t working for us.  We moved to exclusive pumping and bottle feeding and never looked back.  Reagan is a healthy, happy, and lovely little girl, and part of that is because we have been able to give her breast milk mixed with a little bit of formula via these amazing Dr. Brown Vented Bottles. We originally used a basic slow-flow nipple on the standard Medela bottles that came with my Medela Pump.  Reagan was having some major tummy troubles and so after a little research I learned about these vented bottles.  No air comes in contact with the milk and Reagan isn’t sucking down a bunch of air with her milk which would cause her to be fussy and spit up all the time.  Once we switched over to this type of bottle and got her on the Enfamil Gentlease Formula, feeding time was fantastic and enjoyable once again.

xo xo Friends,

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Categories BABY

Reagan’s Newborn Photos

When our beautiful baby girl was 10 days old we had her newborn photos taken and my heart is just melting!!! I can’t believe she is already one month old.  Looking back at these beautiful photos I can’t believe how tiny and brand new she was.  Those first few days and weeks with her will always hold one of the biggest portions of my heart.  Each phase that we go through with her is seriously better than the last and I can’t believe how sweet she is.  Her little personality is starting to show and I just love her so much!!! I already miss the early newborn days but she is starting to learn and interact with us and each day that passes, even the tough days, are so incredibly wonderful.  Being a mommy is the best thing in the whole world!!!! Enjoy these stunning photos of our sweet little Reagan Marie.

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Gold Leaf Headband Ribbon     Mint Newborn Stretch Wrap

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Thank you so much to the amazing Kayla from Kayla Northrup Photography for capturing these precious and once-in-a-lifetime moments with our sweet baby girl.  Kayla also snapped our maternity photos, found HERE, that were beyond gorgeous and really captured our relationship perfectly.  Thank You so much for reading and following along in our journey!

xo xo Friends,

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Welcome to the World, Reagan Marie Haguewood!!!

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At 7:44am on Wednesday, March 2nd we officially welcomed a BEAUTIFUL and SWEET little girl named Reagan Marie Haguewood into this world.  We are so incredibly in love with this little angel and I cannot believe that I am a mommy to a wonderful little baby girl.  Every moment with her so far has been an adventure and a half… complete with little baby smiles, mommy blues, and hours of staring at her sweet little face in the wee hours of the morning.  Today is her official due date, March 13th 2016, but she decided she was ready to come early and is already 11 Days Old!!!!!! I can’t imagine a world without her in it.

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I plan on doing a whole post about my Labor and Delivery but for now i’ll share that things went beautifully.  I feel so blessed to have had a completely uncomplicated labor and a very easy delivery.  I know there are many different experiences and choices when it comes to Labor and Delivery so I’m not going to get into the details too much because I don’t want to offend any other mommas out there.  Any way you choose to deliver your baby means you are a major rockstar in my book.  That “s**t” ain’t easy and I definitely wasn’t prepared for “real” labor contractions.  I have tremendous respect for every mother out there regardless of her delivery circumstances.

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We’ve been soaking up every moment of our new life as a family of 3 + 2 golden retrievers + 3 kitty babies.  Mommy & Daddy have been working very hard to assure that everyone is getting the attention and love they need.  Our family is everything to me and I love the idea that we just grew by one sweet little girl.  So far the girly puppies are semi-interested and curious about Reagan.  Our oldest golden, Jovie, immediately fell in love with the little babe and is her protector.  Roxie, our youngest golden, was a bit more timid and felt quite a bit of anxiety about this small creature who was taking up all of mommy’s time.  I’m happy to say we’ve finally struck a good balance and everyone is settling into our new life with a newborn…and this includes Mommy and Daddy.

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Adjusting to our new life has been HUGE!!! To say this is a life change is the biggest understatement in the world. Reagan was 2 weeks early, still considered full term, but early nonetheless.  I only had our hospital bags 80% packed which meant our exit from the house and car ride to the hospital was less than glamorous and calm.  Everything with her nursery and any necessary baby supplies were ready to go however. I am so happy that I was a bit OCD about completing the “Baby To Do List” prior to being 37 weeks pregnant.  We made it though and only had to spend one night in the hospital.  I was eager to go home and ready to begin our new life with Miss Reagan. The first couple of days as new parents were NUTS, but completely wonderful.  We were so fortunate to have had both our families involved and very supportive in those first couple of days.  I had no idea the trauma my body would go through and how exhausting it would be so it was nice to sleep and rest without having to worry about taking care of her.

 I quickly learned my first “Mommy Lesson” and had to let go of my fears about something happening to her while we slept.  I was WIDE awake for the first 72 hours with the occasional nap sprinkled in.  I was told by everyone that when she sleeps, I need to sleep, but as a new mom I COULDN’T sleep AND didn’t really want to sleep.  I wanted to sit and stare at her, love on her, and make sure she was still breathing every second.  All very normal.  But I finally realized that I can’t take care of her, me, or our family if i’m dead to the world with exhaustion.  We had a minor episode with her that night where she was spitting up blood from my breastmilk, again relatively normal and not harmful to her.  We were struggling a bit with her latch and things got quite raw and sore.  I was extremely worried and was ready to pack up and head to the ER at 3am.  I was sure my new 3-day old newborn was having internal bleeding.  SCARY!!!!! Turns out she is perfectly fine, nothing was hurting her, and she is now latching on great.  I would probably throw up too if I had ingested some blood.  But its funny how that was the night, when the SHIT HIT THE FAN so to say, that I finally crashed for 4 hours straight and had to trust and pray that she would be fine.  I’ve been sleeping hard and intense ever sense without worry or fretting.  THANK GOODNESS!!! I was getting really pooped.

The families left on Tuesday and we had our first official day and night ALONE with our new daughter.  Things have been so smooth and easy.  I feel a little jaded by the experience in that everything has been so perfect and wonderful with her. She is such a good baby and I’m already worried that our second won’t go so smoothly. But for now I am going to focus on her and getting this “motherhood” thing down.  Sleep deprivation is kicking my butt but i’m the luckiest mommy alive in that my husband works from home and is willing to help out.  I get an afternoon nap most days which makes the evenings tolerable.  We call the evenings “Mommy Witching Hour” in that my hormones hit the peek for the day and exhaustion sets in hard.  I get super super emotional and often will cry for no reason at all.  I know things will pass as we get set in a routine and my body finally relaxes from birthing a child.  I am constantly being reminded “to give myself plenty of GRACE in these early days.” I’ve never been a mom before and I have no idea what i’m doing.  But things are starting to click and Jeffrey and I are going off of instinct and what feels right.

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This little angel is a TRUE gift from heaven and we could not be more in love with her.  That sweet little face and her adorable baby personality have my heart bursting at the seams with LOVE!!! I am already sad at how big she is getting and she is literally changing and growing before our eyes.  But it is so fun to see all the new little skills she is learning.  She can already turn her head, big shocker to me, and really loves tummy time and mornings with mom.  We sing and read to her and she loves listening to us.  Her eyes get so BIG like we are rocking her world or something. So FUN!!!!!! Every minute has been exhausting and wonderful just like everyone said it would be.  We are just so happy and so in love with our little Rae Rae. Reagan Marie

Time for another feeding, diaper change, and burp rotation!!!!! I’m loving being a mommy so much…my heart is full beyond measure.

xo xo,

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